Felling the pain within

As I sit here felling the pain that u have put apon and not giving a worried about what i feel inside. All there thoughs race through my mind and they tell me things that i dont want to hear. But i keep on loving u when all i get in returne is hate and the pain that i grew to know. I think about what we had and how it all feel apart and how i was held respondable for it and u throw it in my face everytime. Its hard to love some one that hates u and all u can give them in return is everything they want cause u care so much. And it eats you up in side and there so much that u take and then in the end u look back and see that it was not worth it and how u have missed out on life and its joys it brings with it.