I Lost ...

Well, I thought that I had won him, but nothing could
be farther from the truth. He was the inspiration to most of
my poem writing, but now I'll have to find another which is
going to be difficult because I don't want to seem like a
woman of the night. I was so comfortable with him, but I
guess he outsmarted me.

He started doing things to let me
know that he didn't care to be anything to me, but strangers
as we are. That's cool with me because I'm not going to stay
anyplace where I'm not wanted even in my poems. Being an
amatuer at this, I guess I'll do a seacrh online and at the library
to find out how the great poets of romance got their inspiration.

I know that there has to be a way or I'll have to shut down until
another one comes along (an exceptional lover or inspiration).
Oh God! I don't want to shut down that'll be like defeat wouldn't it?
I guess that I'll do the research and see what comes of it. Who
knows the next great exceptional lover or inspiration might just be
right around the corner. We'll see. Until then "asante" thank you in
Sawhili.


ORIGINALLY CREATED ON 11/7/06