Sixteen seems so long ago.

The world is all around me,
Still what do I know.
One true friend I have not,
All replaced with foes.
Sixteen seems so long ago.
Few years past since my carefree days.
I feel so alone.
I ask you for help everyday.
The only one I can talk to.
The only one I can trust.
The only one that will listen.
Mistakes I have made,
You know as well as I.
Mistakes I still make,
Because I lack enthusiasm to try.
I am so alone.
Possibly by choice,
Most likely not.
Everything crumbles around me,
I am poison!!
Pictures of carefree days taunt my eyes.
Tears well up.
I can not explain this sadness.
A thousand words could deny!
Paint on a face towards family.
My years are passing by!
Too much I have not done.
Much more I have left to say,
I miss you!
Your emotionless face,
Back towards me,
Walking away.
Hurting more than I have ever.
I honestly love you!,
But not the way they all think.
I am sorry that I spoke.
I am sorry that I stayed.
I miss you!!
You were my best friend,
Does that mean nothing?
Too much time wasted on selfishness.
Too much gained,
No respect.
Years are passing by!
I sit here alone,
Think of all I have done,
That I am to do,
Do I live?
Do I die?
I have never before been unsure....
So why now am I??
I am so very alone!
I need your help!
Please do not turn a deaf ear!


~ctv-07