The Price We Pay...........

Lost with in my mind,
seeking something I know i'll never find,
a far cry from the person I use to be,
ashamed of myself, embarased to just be me,
affraid of myself, affraid of my thought,
empty inside, lie stagnant as i rot,
every breath i take,
every smile i fake,
every excuse i make,
a pointless attempt, at what I just don't know,
to weak to try, force to go with the flow,
I have became that wich I despise,
two faced and full of lies,
candy coated pain,
ciggerettes and that stuff in the cellophane,
the cowards way, a slow paced suicide,
inside this hollow shell in which I hide,
pain and sorrow,
numb for now so I'll deal with it tommorw,
but tommorow never comes, there is only today,
for those that understand, trust me when I say,
its just not worth the price we pay...........