# 6: The Saddest Moment of My Life!

”The Saddest Moment of My Life!”
Part Six in a Continuing Series
M. B. Fields, Jr.

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Scripture:

Genesis 1:1-3
2 Samuel: 11-12
Jeremiah 1:4-9ff
Matthew 15:1-20


NOTE: This is the sixth in a continuing series of essays on the topic of “The Chasm”. Reading the previous essays is recommended, but not required.

Hello, friend. It is very good to see you again. I am glad you passed by today. I remember our last opportunity to chat. I hope you do.

Tell me friend, did you create your picture to give to Dad? Did you include everything in it to make your world a wonderfully perfect place? I hope so. Let’s take a look, and I’ll tell you something that will probably change your life. Pull up a stone, and let’s have a chat, shall we?

I know that my picture was truly a masterful work of art. As you may remember, I was a bit shocked when Dad seemed to think that I had missed something. Even after His admonition spoke to my heart, I just knew I had everything in the picture. I spent days on it. Going over my list of all the things that I hated in, and about my life, I eliminated them all. All the things that I felt I had been denied, I put into my picture. I tell you true, friend. I looked into every nook, cranny and crevasse of my world. I got it all.

When I had finally determined that everything was there, and that everything I wanted to be was absent, I brought the picture of my perfect life to Dad. One of the most positive things about being at The Chasm is time. You have lots of time. You can consider, and propose, and posit, and think, and dream.

You can deny, admit, avoid, or accuse too. I did it all. When you look at the entirety and the complexity of your life, it can take a while to really get everything looked at. At The Chasm, it is really important to make certain you cover it all. Feel certain that Dad will give you as much time as you need to look at everything. In fact, when you think you have got it all covered, and Dad is still silent, you can be certain it is because you have missed something.

Sometimes, it is something so obvious you cannot see it because it is directly in front of you. We get all hung up on getting the obscure, the trivial, and the most ancient of thoughts, and feelings from your life experience. Inside your own mind, as you “drill down” from the immediate and the obvious, you will eventually bite into the stuff of substance. When that happens, feel sure that you are getting closer to the stuff that Dad wants to see you deal with. The payoff is dramatic, but the work is really difficult. What I am telling you is to do the work. When you are at The Chasm, it can take a while to get through some pretty difficult stuff.

If you stop to think about it, one life can contain a lot of stuff that has been internalized, compartmentalized, and just plain not dealt with. Unresolved emotional issues can really cram themselves into corners we never knew we had. One of the things you will learn if you have not yet noticed at The Chasm is not only the time required to do the work. You will also be required to deal with everything. It may take more drilling, or even more drills to get down to the level of your life where those things Spiritual dwell.

I was almost endlessly surprised at the things that just came out of nowhere. Many of the things that I was compelled to deal with were very, very old and seemingly insignificant. But these were precisely those things that were creating the obstacles that Dad needed cleared. This will happen to you as well, if you are willing to do the work.

I want you to be willing to do the work. I just want you to understand the work is really hard at some points. Many tears will flow. As you become aware of those things that have kept you from the relationship with Dad that you may want to have, you will be shocked. You will be stunned to learn that something which may have occurred a long, long time ago is a very powerful presence in the undercurrent of your present world. That something may have happened so long ago that you don’t even remember it—and that is precisely the point. You will also find many things present in your “stuff” that you never even realized were there in the first place. That, too, is the point. Whether they are things that you have forgotten, or things you never knew you had, these are the very things that Dad needs desperately for you to become intimately familiar with. He is, you see. He knows them all. He wants you to know them too, as well as He knows them.

Do the work. No matter what it requires of you, do the work. When you recognize that something is there to be dealt with, deal with it. The Chasm is a very private place. No one else is really going to know what you deal with there. In fact, most people that realized I was at The Chasm didn’t want to know the things on my plate, much less what I was doing with them. But, they will realize that you are in a place they cannot be. They neither want to replace you there, or deal with your stuff.

There will come a time when Dad does impress upon you the need to identify those things in your life, in your history, and in your living which are--directly or indirectly--obstacles to the relationship that He wants so badly to have with you. That is, finally, why you are at The Chasm in the first place.

When Dad calls us to The Chasm, it is because we have intersected that one most point, not in our lives or living, but in His Plan, when He is ready to invite us to come to where He is and participate in the work He is actively doing. Before that can happen, we must “clean house”.

What’s that? My painting? Yes, I lifted up my picture to Dad for Him to look at and evaluate.

“Are you sure this is the painting you want me to look at, Bud?”