Rebel Prayer

Rebel Prayer

I don't seek u
until I see u
then I'm afraid

I don't desire u
until I loose sight of u
then I run from u

I don't care
until I'm screaming, where are u
In your silence, I rage
tremble
wish for an end

U touch ambling
I know u are there
force myself to deny u

I lie, I don't care
care about everything
happening to me

I'm curious about u
I don't trust u
I worry
I'll go hungry
the list is longer than the walk

I can't make u mine
I can't kill u
I don't have the courage to wonder if
u are true

U keep saying u are in love with me
relentlessly fiercely long for me
while I cut pierce shit curse on u
I can't hurt u, turn u, emasculate u
Who Am I

U want glory
U'll get it without me
So I hurt me
want to please me
want some way to cut u

Let this cup pass
take out this thorn
I don't believe u will

Take me
take me
your will be done

Afterglow

I do not understand what I do
I do what I don't want to do
I do the evil I want to Paul (57AD)
either way Sarah's breast is blackened
I climb with Isaac, Abraham (2050BC),
and Kierkegaard(1840AD), too many to mention.
More grave talk:Madness89is99amen.