Do I love him or not?

When my heart is filled with this much happiness, it's hard to not smile, or thereless stop smiling. To take this all in and let it live in the beating heart of a girl like me, is where only the thoughts of my true lover should rest. Frustrated with confussion, yet I still let a smile point at the corner of my lips. To give up my heart, into the hands of him? To let this love flow like a calm beautiful stream, seems to today only exist in my thoughts. Yet its mixed up with utter confussion, on whether I love him or not.