Trying to get the feeling again

Wow, why do I take so long to come back to my passion. I let everything in my life interefere with it, and then when I do come back to the empty pages, my mind is in rambles, don't know what to write about, how to express all that is cooped up inside of this crazy little mind of mine. It's been too long since I've wanted to write, a million ideas circle around in my head, I'm not sure where to even start. What used to come so easily to me, now it's just BLOCKED. Sprry to all those writers who read this, I am really not this bad I'll prove with time, I promise. I promise you all, but mostly I promise me.