Already

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I already know that I’m a huge disappointment
I don’t need you reminding me
Trying to figure this all out
While you’re dragging me down
The only thing is that
I’m already underground

Oh, your words are spoken
But my heart’s not broken
Cuz I already shattered it myself
With this hammer in my hand

Oh, it’s complicated
But I’m not jaded
Cuz I’m the one who put it there
And I’m the one that doesn’t care

I hope you realize
I only look at you to avoid looking at myself
But the water’s getting deeper
And I’m not getting any help
We can’t always win
But we can always lose
I must be sick in the head
If that’s the road that I choose

If I was born in December, am I already condemned
To the brittle cold and the old
Dead leaves lying in the flower bed?
I feel as though it’s so
And if it is I’m already good to go
And I can see
With just my luck, they chose me

Oh, your words are spoken
But my heart’s not broken
Cuz I already shattered it myself
With this hammer in my hand

Oh, it’s complicated
But I’m not jaded
Cuz I’m the one who put it there
And I’m the one that doesn’t care

I hope you realize
I only look at you to avoid looking at myself
But the water’s getting deeper
And I’m not getting any help
We can’t always win
But we can always lose
I must be sick in the head
If that’s the road that I choose

It’s upsetting that for my birthday
You can’t give me invisibility

Oh, your words are spoken
But my heart’s not broken
Cuz I already shattered it myself
With this hammer in my hand*

I only look at you to avoid looking at myself
(I already know that I’m a huge disappointment
I don’t need you reminding me)
I only look at you to avoid looking at myself
(Too bad that for my birthday
You can’t grant me invisibility)

Oh, it’s complicated
But I’m not jaded
Cuz I’m the one who put it there
And I’m the one that doesn’t care

I hope you realize
(I already know that I’m a huge disappointment)
I only look at you to avoid looking at myself
(I don’t need you reminding me)
But the water’s getting deeper
(Too bad that for my birthday)
And I’m not getting any help
(You can’t grant me invisibility)
We can’t always win
But we can always lose
I am sick in the head
Cuz that’s the road that I choose

*the word "hand" is screamed and overlaps with the following stanza