Lost...

I am missing you.
Wonder if your missing me too.
Missing the sound of your voice.
Stupid me made that choice.

You were just trying to love me.
I told you to leave me be.

We talked so much about the future.
I wanted it to be.
But i was too immature.
You couldn't see.

I'm falling apart,
I gave you my heart.

I love you way too much.
I wanted to feel your touch.

I was too scared to be with you.
Even though in my heart i knew it was true.
I know you love me too.

So i told you to go away.
Even though i wanted you to stay.

I know i was wrong.
Now i'm trying to be strong.

Walking around like your not
going through my mind.
Your what i was trying to find.

Pretending like i don't care.
Wanting you to be here.

Wondering how you're doing.
Knowing your heart is aching.
Because of me taking.

I wish i could take all the pain
away i know i caused you.
I didn't realize i was hurting you.
Only if i knew.
I could have been true.

We had it planed to meet
but my fear it sure did beat.

I got so mad
now i'm sad.

Wondering how your days have been.
Not knowing,
my head is in a spin.

I pick the phone up everynight.
dialing,
squeezing holding it tight.
I hang it up before it rings.
Scared your hating me
for what i did bring.

Knowing this will never be.
All because of scared me.

I just want you to know.
That you will always have my heart.
You know i love you.
Now its time for me to part.