Life of Lies

        Life of Lies

Forgetting you is so hard to do,
when all I do is miss you.
Dry eyes are never a problem,
cause crying eyes are all I have now.

My heart can't forget you,
though I try everyday.

My mind is consumed by your memory.
My being stopped being.
My life has no meaning.
My love is screaming,
  come back! come back!

How do I go on?
How do I love again?
Why should I love again?

The hurt takes me over.
My heart feels like it wants to die.
I have nothing to live for.

You have left me..
left me all alone...
  to nothingness.

Soon blackness will take over.
My kind heart don't care anymore.
Nothing has meaning.
I'm alone and always will be alone.
I don't talk to anyone,
    for fear of getting too close.

Closeness and trust is what put me here.
Closeness, trust and honesty...what a joke!
It gets you nowhere but hurt.
It's better to hide,
Hide yourself from love.

Love use to mean something good.
Now to love means to hurt.
Hurt til your life is over.

I've learned a lesson from your love.
I've learned that truth, honesty and unconditional love
  don't exist.
I thought they did in me,
I guess they still do,
cause I can't seem to let you go.

I don't know what I'm going to do,
when I move far away.
No connection with you at all.
I guess I'll make it without you.
I've made it so far,
I still cry, I still can't sleep, I still don't eat,
but somehow, I keep going.

You were my world,
but your someone else's now.
So what I feel, has no meaning to you.

Four years with you and
  it was all a lie!
20 years with my ex and
  it was all a lie!
I guess my life really has no meaning,
because it was all a lie.

                              Tammi  07/2007