UNTITLED 1

I've been so angry, I have forgotten to cry.
But then I see it again.
And the dagger returns to its tender pose.

Two tears started their warm decent down the side of my face
Although the first, they moved quickly with force
Each side moved simultaneously in an arched pattern as to enclose me...a hug of sorts
My skin soaked up the support they offered and left a stiff path
The next two followed closely
And the next
My body lies still, only the tears have the movement in this domain

My face is burning; it seems to boil each bead that drops
This anger has come to me for the first time.
It's as though I've been handed a slideshow of your life,
Another life,
A stranger's life,
Can it be you?
The stranger?
Tell me...which life is yours?
Who are you?
Andy why can't all the slates in my head be cleared of you. Each of you
Tell me...did you ever really mean a word of it?

Because of you, my greatest fear has become my latest desire.
My actions had no repercussions, yet I am left to find a cure
He showed me his best attributes, they didn't impress me
Just a burning, a yearning, for what was.
What do you do when what you want becomes irrelevant?
When your heart has made a breakthrough, the breakthrough
And it means....nothing.
The uncontrollable rhythm of my heart...means nothing.

My oasis, my escape was in all probability what you would call scalding, at least it seemed, the way it altered the environment,
I couldn't really tell, but I'd do anything to feel again.
Nothing washed away.
Each drop just bounced away as if it refused to deal with anything I had laid down before it, it is only I that is meant to handle your wrong

That man, that man I knew. You had no white stallion, but then, it would only have been a mere novelty, a trinket
And now, now I have handed you your shield and armor, and you can't save me
You can't save you
When did this become my fairytale, my happily ever after?
A tainted dream
It seems the deadly concoction of your mastery of deception and my fatal flaw of trust, has become the poison
Now, numb
Except for the bleeding of my eyes- from your venom


Shea 4-16-07