Away

Fear surrounds me
Lost in my mind
I suffocate on the knowledge
That everything will not
Be alright, not this time.

His gaze on my back
Makes me want to hide
But that is not allowed
Instead I take what he offers
While I think of other things.

There is homework to do
Friends to write
But if he sees my thoughts
I wont survive the night
I just need to make it till dawn.

Tomorrow I will run
And send back the ring
Maybe pass it to his mom
I know she understands
I wish I'd listened.

She'd been through this
With his dear old dad
And feared it would
be passed down the line
Like those eyes.

I just let him
Have his way again
Pretend I'm there with him
But send my mind away
To the dawn I hope I'll see.