5 Years

5 years I’ve been waiting.
5 years I’ve been crying.
5 years I have missed you.
5 years I’ve been dying.

5 years I’ve been lost.
5 years I’ve had doubt.
5 years I’ve had dreams, of which you are about.

5 years I’ve been searching.
5 years I’ve been regretting.
5 years I’ve been hoping.
5 years of never forgetting.

5 years of memories, of
5 years before.
5 years of dreams, that you’ll soon be at my door.

5 years of heartache.
5 years of obsession.
5 years without a friend.
5 years of depression.

5 years to sit and think.
5 years to come to grips.
5 years to finally realize I want nothing more, because you’re it.

5 years to waste away.
5 years to live a lie.
If its been 5 years,
Why can’t I say goodbye.