heroin pain

Heroin pain
You used to love me but yet now i love you with no return
You took all my pain away the first time you went into my arm it was like heaven
You promised never to hurt me as long as i continued to love you
But yet you only made me hate myself more

You made me numb and kept me from feeling
you made me sick when i did not have you
You got me to the point where i did not care what i had to do to get you
The only thing that mattered was you coming into my veins

I love you but i hate you
You are my best friend and worst enemy
You bring me joy but yet yopu do nothing but cause me pain
When i need you its the greatest pain there is
But when i have you i feel nothing
You took my children away from me
But yet I did not care you were all i needed

You took me places i never thought i would go
You made me sink lower than low I thought I was fine
But then i realized i was under your power

Everyday is a struggle as i fight to stay away from you
But everyday you call me back saying just one more won't hurt
You try to get a hold of me again and again trying your hardest to bring me that pain and joy once again
I have done good so far just staying out of your grasp but I live in fear everyday
Just of the thought that you may enter my vein again someday

I love you but I hate you
You take all the pain away untill you have left my body
and then it all returns
So its a continues cycle of love and hate just trying to keep the pain and feeling away