Heartbreak

I find myself honestly forgetting to breathe.
My heart is shattered and I can’t seem to make it happen.
I’m numb, but not what you think of when you think of numb.
I’m the kind of numb that’s the result of being so filled
With this heart shredding pain that I can’t feel anything else.

My eyes are so swollen from the tears. I can’t stop crying.
I feel sick to my stomach, like at any second I could lose it.
I don’t want anything but him. I can’t even imagine.
This feeling is like a cancer, eating away at me
Until I can’t survive it any longer.

It’s like I’ve lost a part of me.
Something I’ll never get back.
I still can’t believe it’s really over.
How could this happen?
Oh yeah. It’s me. I did this.

I’m suddenly drawn back to reality.
Instead of dreaming about life with him,
Being good and happy, and together.
It’s like a slap in the face, you know?
Oh wait, maybe you don’t.

You’ll never know exactly how I feel.
Not until you walk a day in my shoes.
But you can’t do that either.
So I guess we’ll just leave it at that.
Just wait, it’ll happen to you. It’ll knock the life out of you.