that boy

i go to school everyday just to see his face
just to hear is voice
just to be near him.

he promises me he won't ever love me back
everytime he says something
that will break my heart again.

every night, he's the last thing on my mind.
i wish on every star hoping someday he'll love me
like i love him.

my friends always tell me
'you can do better'
'get over him manda'
'he's not worth your time'

but he's not your everyday crush.
i've loved him for three years
and he's always been different.

his eyes are the most beautiful shade of brown
i've ever seen with my own blue ones.
and he's such a talented musician.

i wonder every day if he sees everything i do for him
and how the way i am
reflects everything he's ever said about me.

he said i was fat last year
now im so skinny, you can see my ribs and my spine.

he said i was ugly.
i spend an hour in front of the mirror to try to see myself as pretty.

it worries my friends.
it worries my family.
but if it makes him love me,
it will all be worth it on the end.





constructive critisism please "]