Knowing

This was written right after I found out my parents were getting divorced. It was a hard thing to handle because I was so very close to my dad and now he's a stranger.

Sometimes I feel I can't go on
Not wanting to hurt any longer
Knowing I need to be strong
For myself and loved ones

I'm scared of my future
Knowing now, what I didn't then
Knowing he's been lying all along
Saying to her he loved her
Saying he always would

I want to say what has happened
Will never change who I am
But I can't lie to myself
And the ones I love
Not like him

To say it's their problem
And only theirs alone
Makes me so angry
It's us he's leaving too

To know he's fallen in love so soon
With someone not my mom
I don't even know who he is anymore
Like a stranger, I'll never know

I came into his life twenty years ago
He slipped out of mine with a breath
Not bothering to call or write.
He didn't even bother,
To help finish my lifes fight.