Last Hurt

Last Hurt?

I got the call today.
He managed to take more out of me.
Using my own daughter to say,
Or do things to destroy me.

All I am now,
And all I will ever become,
I don’t know how
I can ever be more than numb.

He has managed to steal
All of me, all that I am,
My heart nor my life will not heal.
This time I don’t give a damn.

Sorry if these words offend,
I am sorry if my tears are permanent,
But I felt my heart quit and my life just end,
When I heard the tales he had sent.

So now where are our boys?
They may be left all alone
Because he has stolen all my joys
Turing this mother’s heart to stone.

I hear them playing as I write,
My tears just keep flowing.
This may be my last night.
Yet they will keep growing.

Yes, he said my girl
Was hurt while in my care,
Now I have nothing left in this world.
I can’t fight, I am so very scared.

Well, he has won the battle (or even the war)
I just can’t see me winning.
Right now I can not see breathing anymore
I can not see anything worth defending.

So who can stand by my side?
Who really knows my pain?
I have lost everything even though I tried.
I have nothing else to gain.

His sister said the proof was in,
There is no denying.
I know that is a story told by him,
Yet, I am still crying.

So if you pray day or night,
I think I need your prayers now.
God is the only one to make this right,
Because I don’t know how.

This is the not a tale told.
This is my world today.
Please ask God to help me to be bold,
To look to him and pray.

For God, I know can see,
But I stand in the shadow.
I know he is watching over me
Why is life so hard to swallow?

Thank everyone who can feel
My pain and my grief.
What I am writing is real,
If I could have just believed.

Right now my faith is small,
Maybe I will rely on you.
Then God will heal it all,
And give me happy life a new.




Inspired by a very cruel ex-husband and his wife