unwanted words

disguised in alms
good will and love
she writes letters overflowing
with ghoulish details of the demise
of people I have long forgotten
who have stolen my love
and turned it against me...
I care not for her descriptive prose
but cannot bring myself
to laugh at her minutia
or to unbridle my anger
at her insensitive choice of words
yet the jocular giggling of my belly
and the deep resuscitating breaths
after explosions of exasperation
would, one or the other, tearfully
cleanse my ruffled soul
of the loss of those same people
who should have been present
but are strangely absent
at times when alms are the most desired


unwanted words
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