Know That When I Cry...

Know that when I cry
I'm not mad at you.
I'm angry about myself.

Know that when I cry
I'm not nessicarily sad.
Being depressed has nothing to do with sadness,
just my own self-hate and disappointment.

Know that when I cry
I don't want to be asked repeatedly why.
Ussualy, I don't even know.
Just leave me alone in my tears.
I'll run to you to hold me when I am ready.

Know that when I cry
I am lost inside myself.
I've never really known who I am
or what I want.
All I know
is that I probally don't diserve the things I have been blessed with.

Know that when I cry
I don't know the right words to explain why,
and although I may not speak -
I hear every word you say.







"I've cried, and you'd think I'd be better for it, but the sadness just sleeps, and it stays in my spine the rest of my life.”