she chose

SHE CHOSE

I agreed to let her spend time
With her brother and her dad
I did not know that she would be crying
And make my life so sad

She said that she did not want to choose
She had told me things they had done
Yet I am the one who has to loose
Standing there so stunned

When she would not get in the car
To go home with me
Leaving yet another giant scar
On a heart that is already lonely

I can’t turn off a mother’s heart
I can’t say, “you can’t come home”
I can not break away and be a part
She is the tune to my life’s song

She is the first born girl
She hurt from her dad’s leaving
The first real part of my real world
I won’t stop believing

One day she will not have to choose
She will be her own
I pray that she will not loose
Or ever feel this alone

I want her to be happy
Through the tears I shed tonight
She will be my baby
I want her to be all right

Though I cry now in the dark evening
I know she will be a woman
That there will be no more leaving
Then she will understand