Gemini

Two sides of a coin joined together, yet strangely apart
One side has a peacefulness, the other a blackened heart
Where the stirring of pain,hatred, and death
Are harbored entwined, running away from myself
But, nary a place is left to hide
The blur of the violence, the stench of internal rage
Captures the moment, seizes all I've got left
My sanity is tested, pushed beyond all remorse
The brutality of my lashing out
Will forever change my course
And my silent side keeps praying
For the inner demons to rest
My darkened existence thinks it knows what's best
So, I struggle about, wrestling with my very soul
Peering up from my dark and lifeless hole
To gaze at the glimmer of the light far above
Trying so desperately to climb back up
To the brightness called 'LOVE'
Slowly my demons crawl back beneathe the reality
And tears of agony laced with regret
Rush deep from inside my coin's peacefulness
Cleanse away this hate, like a cold, cavernous creek
That rejuvenates the flesh
I wipe away my cleanser
And methodically appraise my mess
With forgiveness rising up inside
I finally come to realize
That through all this pain, anger, and demise
I am still frozen, looking into your sparkling eyes
As they pierce through my heart
Like a sacrificial dagger so sharp
And I taste the lifeblood of this relationship
Never wanting it to be over with
Like the sides of my coin, flipping side to side
Never quite sure which will show itself next
For I am called Gemini.