Saving Me

SAVING ME

We were in love but we were poison too.
You craved my love so much it tainted you.
I tried to leave, you knocked me to the floor,
then said you'd die if I walked out the door.

I couldn't cry, I couldn't care, I didn't want to die.
Should've saved you but I won't lie.
We wanted life, we wanted love, but we could not see why
we couldn't stay and both remain alive.

My life before you is a dream right now.
What was I thinking when I took the vow?
Did I think that I could change your life
or save you from your own destructive fire?

While you were burning, you called out my name.
My tears weren't fast enough to douse the flame.
Helpless, I watched you and our union melt
too numb and cold, nothing was all I felt.

I couldn't cry, I couldn't care, I didn't want to die.
Couldn't save you and that's no lie.
I wanted life, I wanted love, but now I know just why
I couldn't stay and save my own life.

If I ever choose to love again
I know I can't repeat the same sins.
I can forgive you but I'll not forget
I haven't finished living life just yet.

I cry, I care, and now I will not die.
Won't save a life before I save mine.
I still want life and love but now I know
if there's a next time, I must take it slow.

I'll cry, I'll care, but I won't watch them die.
Can't save a life until I save mine.