Saving Me

SAVING ME

We were in love but we were poison too.
You craved my love so much it tainted you.
I tried to leave, you knocked me to the floor,
then said you'd die if I walked out the door.

I couldn't cry, I couldn't care,
I didn't want to die.
Should've saved you
but I won't lie.
I wanted life,
I wanted love,
but can't you see why
I cannot stay
and keep my soul alive.

While you were burning, you called out my name.
My tears weren't fast enough to douse the flame.
Helpless, I watched you and our union melt
too numb and cold, nothing was all I felt.

I couldn't cry, I couldn't care,
I didn't want to die.
Couldn't save you
and that's no lie.
I wanted life, I wanted love,
but now I know just why
I couldn't stay
and save my own life.

My life before you is a dream right now.
What was I thinking when I took the vow?
Did I think I could just change your life
or save you from your own destructive fire?

I cry, I care, and now
I will not die.
Can't save a life
until I save mine.
I still want life and love
but now I know
if there's a next time,
I must take it slow.

If I ever choose to love someone again
I know I can't repeat the same sins.
I can forgive you but I'll not forget.
I haven't finished living life just yet.

I'll cry, I'll care,
but I won't watch you die.
Won't save your life
until I save mine.

Won't save a life.
until I've saved mine.


SWPoet
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To those who enter abusive relationships in hopes of changing or fixing the other person.  Two halves do not make a whole in a relationship, only two wholes can truly unite without harming each other.