My Choice

I saw my spirit.
leave my body
and float up.
through the sky.
I could not believe.
How light I felt.
After I had died.


I had to stand.
by myself
while waiting for
the gates.
They were closed.
locked up tight.
Christians went.
through those.

Angels passed their time.
Pointing at each one.
They paid no.
attention to
my whine of.
why I denied
Christ's Son.

I saw some of my
old friends
just looking straight
through me.
Knowing I had denied
their God
while playing fast
and free.

I wish I could go
and see what
their looking at.
But a cross across
the gate
wouldn't let
me see.
and stopped my
thought on that.

As they turned
to walk away
my tears began
to flow.
It was then.
I heard them say
You made your choice
that day.

I had denied Christ Son
those days.
Not caring who I
hurt.
Now it is my day
to pay
for wanting things
my way,

Satan stares into
my eyes,
Mesmerizing me.
Laughing at all the lies
knowing
My soul is his
for eternity.