Sick And Tired

SICK AND TIRED

I'm sick and tired of being
In the middle of this war
This bickering does nothing
But leave me drained and sore
I just don't understand it
Why can't you get along?
It's like a broken record
Replaying the same old song
Just end it, I can't take it
It's driving me insane
The constant disagreement
Is only causing pain
I wanna near others
But inside I am afraid
Of getting hurt and battered
And turning into bait
I wish I could escape it
But it's everywhere I turn
And trying to tune you out
Does nothing in return
Maybe I should try ignoring
All that escapes from you
So I won't have to worry
About my damaged view
Of my future and the people
I tend to push away
And jailing my existence
Locking myself to stay
In a shell where it is safe
I'm protected from the hate
And whatever comes my way
I've no need to be afraid
For I'm trapped, I'm trapped inside
And that's where I'm gonna be
These four walls will hold me tight
Til you stop abusing me

Written January 30, 2007

Story Behind The Piece:

Many times I found myself in the middle of bickering, verbal arguments, name calling, etc. I wasn't the one having them, but I was present when it happened amongst other people. It didn't matter whether it was between my parents or relatives or others. I was affected either way, and more so from the parental ones. I found my mood going down and even had tears in my eyes. And then one day as I was trying to write a new piece, this rant came out of my head and onto the computer screen. The rhymes make it a bit catchy and the emotion makes it touching. I can say that being surrounded by bickering, verbal arguments, name calling, etc. does no good for people, even for the ones that do these acts. It solves nothing and only makes the mood and the relationship worse between people. And those that are in the middle of it all (people who have nothing to do with it but just happen to be there when it happens) get hurt just as much as those committing the act.