Not ok

I mite have made a mistake
It seemed like such a good idea at the time
And that good feeling lingered
however
Now the good feelings are dissolving
And in there dissipation
They leave a feeling in another direction
A direction that I've dabbled to far down in before
I can feel something wrong
And no matter how much we talk through it
The feeling only grows
Its eating through me like a poison
Everyone told me not to
But I gave her the benefit of my doubt
And this is where its gotten me
Im not fucking ok!