Am I ..... Sane or Insane?

AM I... Sane or Insane ?

In this dark, dank and dreary decay
that I call my home and my reality
the musky, putrid smell that grows
off of the ugly brick walls of Grey clay
has opened my eyes to my immortality
has my life sunk to the deepest of the lows
that forever this will be...my mentality ?

I try to climb my way up out of this black
horrible fungus, festered, foul finality of rot
where only the rats play and maggots rest
until their next meal, they lay in a dark crack
looking to see what they could fest upon alot
forever taunting me, putting me to the test
hoping for me, for feeding they have forgot.

Is this my reality or is it all in my mind?
the longer I live here I start to believe
maybe this is my real world where I live
this place, past and present are intertwined
I have no hope of this place I would leave
for it is myself after all that I do not forgive
allowing myself to be kind, but blind to all mankind

While thinking totally of torture I have in mind
of how I could rip the flesh from their bones
cut them, pour honey upon their gaping wounds
while pouring fire ants upon them, and grind
slivers of glass into their wounds, hearing moans
the more they bleed, scream they will soon see
my darkness and theirs are completely entwined

Oh the darkness life has bestowed upon me
do I keep trying to get out, this place of fright?
Is it normal to feel safe in this dark, dank place?
Or is it normal to want to get out, run, to flee
I still stay here and hold tight to the midnight.

These happy thoughts, do you think me insane?
I have lived in this darkness for so long....
I know nothing else, or how happy people live
I feel safe here in this dungeon of my brain
no one dares to enter, cause they do not belong
in this murky, madness of mayhem that I relive...
after reading my thoughts, do you still think me sane?


By: Cissyccr/ C.R.W.
6/29/08

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