Suddenly

I was just living with myself,
I had you all boxed up on the shelf,
had a lid on the feelings I couldn't touch,
suddenly it's off and I'm feeling too much

Suddenly I'm not myself,
I can't find the place where I used to be,
I can't see things as I need to see,
and it all happened so suddenly

Now I'm in the deep water,
and I'm praying that I don't falter,
have to keep swimming for the shore,
if I go under you'll know even more

Suddenly I'm not myself,
I can't find the place where I used to be,
can't see things as I need to see,
and it all happened so suddenly

I don't think I can exist like this,
knowing what you can't know,
feeling what I can't show,
running from what I can't let go

I'm so suprised at where I am,
I'm so surprised to be feeling again,
You never intended for this to be,
never plotted this course for me

Suddenly I'm not myself,
I can't find the place where I used to be,
I can't see things as I need to see,
and it all happened so suddenly