Strings

Hell on earth all I know..
What do you want!
Chills my small bones.
You never listen~ or hear what I say,
Never a compromise any given day.
Breaking me down,
Mentally I am bound.
My spirit lays beneath ground..
Am I really dying.
And you are smiling....
I broke my souls rule.
Giving into being a fool.
Covered in filth, thrown by you
Drowning inside a sadness filled pool.
Forget about love, candles and doves.
Tears and pain I have paid everyday.
Yes, I have only myself to blame.
Trapped in this wicked game,
I just believed~ things would change.
Those words to be true,
How much you loved me through and through.
Everything has remained~
Unbalanced and insane..
Your mind twisted and sick too,
How on earth did I love you.
The strings on my heart-
You plucked and picked.
Beating me down, with each harsh whip.
Time is leaving me behind,
I wonder how and why.
Lost I am, it is me, I can not find.
The dream of colors, I hold tight inside.
My passions are thrown cast aside.
You smother them out with each lie.
I scream, but there is no way out.