Will It Ever Change?

I haven't heard from him in three and a half months and I don't suppect that I will ever heard from him again, but it's all good because I've learned how to survive when the bad comes into my life. He's probably happy thinking that I'm tripping over the breakup. This heart is doing great and I'm looking forward to the next round of fights bewteen us. It's like this, we fight, we break up and then we get back together, love, fight, and get back togerher. It's a never ending-cycle.

To be honest though, I wish it would end because all I want more than anything else in this cruel world is to be with him and to be in his arms at all times, but he has these little annoying hang-ups - like my world should revolve only around him. For example, whenever we're in the same room together or even when we're apart, he needs to know that he has my undivivded attention. If he sense that that is not happening, it SPELLS "I got someone else and he and I - the other person is trying to make a fool out of him." I'm not suppose to reject these accusation because then it appears to him that I really am involved with someone else. I put up with this behavior because I know that he really loves me and I love him and besides that, he is so handsome. I know looks aren't everything that there should be in a relationship, but you've got to see this one - "he's got it going on."

Maybe someday, he'll change, but for now, I don't see change in sight, so I guess I'll just have to live with this annoying habit of his until one of us gives up and walks away for good. Well, enough said, anyway, it's late and I'm going to bed. I just thought that I would write this.