Loving Differences

                             Love is quarreling with my mind,
                             friends, then lovers, turned friends again.
                             Difficult and different feelings,
                             the complexity of this love,
                             tenderness of heart for the friend,
                             throbbing ache for the lover lost.

                             Torturous thinking ... all as lost,
                             love of the friend consumes my mind.
                             Falling in love, more than a friend,
                             never to resurrect again-
                             Surprising finish to her love,
                             seemingly no tender feelings-

                             Disregarding all my feelings,
                             nothing it seems of friendship lost.
                             No indication she held love,
                             all alone and losing my mind.
                             Mistake never to make again,
                             just a used man without his friend-

                             I gave my all for my best friend,
                             cherished her with blissful feelings.
                             This will never happen again,
                             unbearable being so lost.
                             She will always be on mind,
                             I can't deny being in love.

                             Man consumed by a lover's love,
                             can't disconnect love for a friend.
                             Pain and sorrow filling the mind,
                             not able to kick sick feelings-
                             Wandering thoughts of a man lost,
                             weeping, sleeping...crying again.

                             No chance of being close again,
                             just can't take the pain of my love.
                             It's over for me, my life lost,
                             foolish man thinking her a friend.
                             Everyday non-ending feelings,
                             never finding relief of mind-

                             Sullen again, missing my friend,
                             sorrow filled love, deepest feelings,
                             never lost from the sad heart's mind.