Hesitation

Hesitation

My hand reaches out
Reluctantly
My eyes look up
Hesitantly
I begin to speak

I talk idly
About nonsensical things
That neither of us care about
My silence
Fills the room

I begin to fear
Many little things
Am I foolish?
Am I truly sure?
Is there even a possibility?

I care not
My feelings are too strong
But to feel this way
And not know the consequences
I doubt myself

Are you not Happy?
Do you not rejoice?
I wonder why..
My resolve crumbles

I begin to speak
No more idle banter
My whole reason
For being
Pours out
I cannot stop
The flood of words that escapes
I fear that flood
Will drown you
And take you away
Forever.