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Student-Cissy WhiteWolf I woke this morning knowing that I had an important day ahead. Excited, this is ' the ' day! I was so happy that I almost was giggling to myself. Will they be able to help me? I wonder....Instructor- Diane Sunrise class Lesson 3-part one October 16th, 2008 The Eye Exam Today is the day that I find out if my eyes and hearing can be fixed. You see... I have not seen details since my childhood. I can see colors or outlines of things such as people, structures and animals if I am close enough. I am what they call ' legally blind.' I so want to see again like I was able to when I was a child. I would simply love just to see a leaf in a tree again. I love the beauty of nature. Always have. After the appointment with the Specialist Eye Surgeon, then it is off to the Ear, Nose and Throat Specialist for my hearing. I have partial hearing left and I haven't heard sounds unless they were loud since the 1980's. June 12th 1986 to be exact. I have not heard the beautiful birds singing or wind blowing. If it rained, I could not hear it unless it was a down pour. If a person is talking in a normal low tone, and their back is turned to me, I cannot hear them either. But if they speak in that low tone facing me... I can pretend that I hear because I learned how to read lips enough to get me by as to what they were saying. If I messed it up on what they were saying, I'd play it off as - " I'm sorry, I didn't hear you, I was distracted. " That works every time. I just know they will be giving me good news today and will tell me that I will be hearing and seeing very soon now. I can't wait! My appointment is at 9:30 am. It is now 8:30 am. I think that I will just go early and if they have a cancellation, then they can take me early, and I ' do ' hope that they have an early cancellation. As I'm driving down the highway to my first appointment, I started thinking about what it would be like to actually hear again like everyone else does, and to be able to see again what others take for granted so much and can see. As I try to imagine... I honestly do not know how to imagine it because it has been too long for me to remember the sounds of things I cannot hear. It has been too long to remember what things look like in detail; so all I can do is wonder. So excited about it all and the possibility of all of this really happening, I almost go off of the road and swerve to miss a car coming up on my left side, as I slightly had ventured into the next lane without knowing that I did. Breathless, I pull off of the highway onto the outer part of the road, put my car into park, and just sit there and shook from it all. UNerved because I had almost had a car accident. All because I was too excited and not paying attention. I need to calm down! What good would it do me if I had a wreck even if they could fix me? I wouldn't be alive to enjoy it. Back onto the highway, I get to my Doctors appointment without another incident, and still get there ahead of time. As I am signing in I see that there are not that many ahead of me, for this I was glad. Good, it will not be that long of a wait to see the Doctors. In no time at all my name was being called, and I was being lead down a long hallway to an examining room. The nurse said for me to just sit in the chair and the Doctor will be with me shortly. I thought... yeah right, sure he will; now it will be another wait until he comes in. but to my surprise, he walked in just as I had finished that thought. Now I started to get nervous, but tried to stay as calm as I could. Telling myself to... "Calm down girl! This will be a breeze, no problem!" Doctor VanNeer said to relax and to look at the spot on the wall... I'm thinking, "what spot?” I say okay Doctor. Then he lowers me back in a reclining position to put drops into my eyes. Right at that moment, something just didn't feel quiet right, I don't know what it was, I couldn't put my finger on it, and it just felt off somehow about this whole thing. Then something happened that will live with me forever! Dr. VanNeer said, to me, " Danielle', you might feel some discomfort while I do these next examinations, so I am giving you the choice of having a local anesthetic." Okay.... I'm getting a little scared now, but I thought - "no, I want to know what he is doing to me. Something still didn't feel right about all of this. "I said,” No thank you Doctor, I think I will take my chances and just try to cope with the pain." This seemed to make him mad it appeared. For what reason I don't know, but it did, because he got snappy in his response to me after I said that. Dr. VanNeer said, "Fine then! Do as you like! I was just trying to warn you of the pain involved and was trying to make you as comfortable as possible while going through this procedure. It was then he turned to his nurse that had been standing just out of my eye sight to the right of the room, and said... "Ms. Anderson, would you please go to Mr. Walker's room and start to get him ready for his test please?" Ms. Anderson said politely, without arguing the point, "yes Doctor." And then went out of the room. Okay, now those creepy feelings of uneasiness came flooding in like a tidal wave that said something ' wasn't ' right! It was then that it happened, and it feels like a bad dream now as I think about it. The Doctor put a mask onto my face by force and strapped me down to the examining chair. Turned the ' laughing ' gas on and proceeded to lock the door and to undress me in a hurry, and went straight to work on me, if you know what I mean...... when he was finished taking me by force, he zipped up his pants, and then very calmly redressed me the way I had been. He then unlocked the door and started doing the eye tests like normal. He was even whistling for Christ's sake! Oh my God! This was a nightmare! Did this really happen? I couldn't believe it. As like an after thought to the Doctor, he then shut off the ' laughing ' gas, and unstrapped me a little, but made sure that I was still confined to the chair and couldn't get up. It wouldn't have done me any good even if he did, Dr. VanNeer knew exactly what he was doing administering the right amount of ' gas ' to secure that I would be unable to defend myself or to run if I got loose from the binding straps. When he saw that I was not fighting to get up, he removed the straps completely. I was thinking in my fogged mind that, " Oh God, I wish someone would have come to the door before he removed the straps or the ' gas ' from my face. Who would believe me now? It looked like it should look if anyone came in now! " Dr. VanNeer finished the eye exam and said, " okay little lady, when you get your senses back to you, you are free to go.” And with a wink to me, he walked out of the door as if he didn't do anything wrong! OH NO! This didn't just happen to me. Who would believe me now? Who would I tell? I had to get my head straight, I had to think.... there has got to be something I can do about this. Then as my head began to clear, I started thinking that, this wasn't the first time he has done this to someone. There were others I knew, he was too proficient in what he had just did to me. What an absolute ' monster ' he was and IS! I will find a way to make him pay for what he has done to me, even if it takes me the rest of my life doing it! Written for Sunrise class. By: Cissyccr~ WhiteWolf 10/16/08
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