The Start of Something New

I sit up at night and worry,
Waiting for you to call.
I feel my mind begin to hurry
Toward the inevitable fall.

My toes toward the edge
Of this black hole in my mind.
I step toward the ledge,
And I hope it will be kind.

"Release me from this pain!" I yell,
"Release me from your grasp!"
I scream even though I can tell
It came out as a gasp.

"I know you hear me, friend",
I call out desperately,
"Approaching my mind's end,"
I hope you hear my plea.

But all you do is laugh,
For you know I don't feel pain.
And even though I do,
All my cries were in vain.

Then comes another one,
A light in all my dark.
You thought that you had won,
Until you say my newfound spark.

"Enough of this!" I scream,
"I'm sick of all your games!
I know what my life means;
I won't let it go up in flames!"

For us, this is the end,
Our lives have gone askew.
But then I feel the mend,
And the start of something new.