My Sexual Diary

4/16/10 *****************************************************************************************************
About 2 years ago my brother got me involved in playing World of Warcraft with him. If ever anyone wants to play with me I am AshDancer in the Winterhoof Realm and PlayfulOne in the Velen Realm *smiles* If you stop and say "Hi, I'm from Writing.com" I will be glad to entertain you *giggles*

10/14/2009 ************************************************************************************************

I had a dream, a day dream, that I was a faerie, a lil like Tinker Bell only a lil taller - nearly the size of a barbie doll.

And one night while flying around in the moonlight among the night flowers, sucking the pistols of their dewy nector, you catch me and placed me in a jar with holes in the lid for air. You run inside and put me on a shelf with a few other woodland faeries, dimly glowing in their jars, that you have caught. Some of them with fiery red hair and red maple wings, some with emerald hair and dragonfly wings, others with neon blonde and white pedal wings and me with night dark hair and moth wings.

Later, you take my jar down. I had been sitting, crying , feeling sorry for myself but now my palms are pressed against the glass, staring out to see what is to become of me. You open the jar lid and grab me, holding me tight but not too tight in your giant hand.

In an almost dizzying manner, you turn me over, then over again looking at me from all angles. Then to my horror rip off my lil black dress exposing my female faerie anatomy to your wonder lust eyes, then turn me over and pluck my beautiful, beautiful wings off. I sob to lose so precious a part of who I am. You smile at my plight, you know that when my wings grow back by month's end you will simply pluck them off again, denying my freedom to fly.

Without so much as permission, you pry my legs open and stare at my hairless lil pussy, flip me over and push my buns aside check out my cute lil faerie ass. Your single finger roughly feels my lil faerie breasts, nearly bruising them.

While holding me face up you take a lil blunted feather quill and penetrate my lil pussy. I squirm in the clutches of your other hand but to no avail. You stroke with skill and before long you watch as I make lil moans and undulate my mound against the blunted quill. Watching as I cum hard, You take me closer to your face and look at my cum covered pussy, then lick my entire body, enjoying the gourmet taste of my fairy cum.

You put me back in my jar with a morsel of pumpkin bread and a drop of water the size of a dew drop and screw the lid back on tight, placing me back on the shelf.

When I recover from my orgasm, for faeries orgasms can last hours or days even, I notice that the quill must have had a lil ink left in it, that my bald pussy is stained by ink.I put my palms against the curved glass prison and peer outside. You have another faerie, you just made her cum too and you lick her between her legs and up her entire body - your tongue is stained black.

Then I look at all the faeries in the bottles, most have ink stains on their pussies, some do not, some are recovering from having just cum, a few have been here so long they have forgotten freedom and can barely wait to be chosen to cum next, their only stimulation, a fate I know I too will suucumb to in time.

I sit cross legged, naked in my glass prison and eat my pumkin bread morsel and scoop water in my cupped hands from the dew drop, looking into the garden outside through the window...wondering...why fight the inevitable *sigh*

10/13/2009 ************************************************************************************************

I've had a fantasy for many years now. I dream that you wake me up in the wee hours of the morning and friendnap me. You blindfold me and sit me in the car and drive for two hours. When you stop, you come help me out of the car, fumble with something in the trunk and guide me. I hear no cars only birds, bugs, and the breeze. The ground is not even so I have to go slow.

When at last we stop, you fuss with something cloth. I can smell fresh bread.

You remove my blindfold and I see a checkered cloth in the middle of a sunny spot surrounded by forest in the middle of nowhere in the mountains. I am dressed only in a speghetti string cami and panties, since you didn;t give me time to dress from my slumber. We eat bread and cheese, drink a lil wine and chat.

When nearly done, you blindfold me once again and ask me to lean back. I do. You slowly slide my panties off and spread my legs, bending my knees back and away.

I expect to have you enter me...but you instead place a scoop of very cold ice cream in my pussy hole...brrrr. You then put the head of a squirt bottle and squirt warm fudge sauce into my freezing pussy. Followed by whipped cream and a peeled banana shoved deep and rocked back and forth for a bit.

You then lay down and eat me out...I cum hard for you as you eat your cum covered banana split.

You then pull me forward and press mylips against your fudge covered whipped cream topped cock, which I suck off - An ice cream Sundae with your cum as a topping.

After rolling around, maybe a lil through the woods chase, you catch me take me to the ground, mount me and claim me as your territory, filling me with your seed. We talk and laugh for a bit, then you drive me home denying me my panties.

10/09/2009 ************************************************************************************************

I don’t drink alone. And I usually drink no more than to get a lil tipsy otherwise. I never drink if I think I may have to drive. And I never allow myself to be driven by someone who has had a drink.

I have only gotten skunk drunk twice, both times it felt like death the next day. So I stick with getting tipsy. When I drink it takes a bit to kick in but I am told that I am happy and open to suggestion when I am a happy tipsy. I find that when I drink I remember almost nothing the next day. If people talk about what happened I may remember parts of it.
         
I have been embarrassed waking up the next morning in a guy friend’s bed and feeling a lil lost as to how I got there and what we may have done the night before…or all night long for all I know.

Knowing this, I only drink with guys that were I to end up in their bed, they would be acceptable should I unknowingly agree to sex in that state. So in a sense I’ve already agreed to it…but haven’t told anyone verbally. Does that make sense?

I am told that I am very pliable when I am tipsy and I imagine I would be since I tend to be a lil submissive anyway. One guy told me that I begged him for sex “very cutely”. I can neither confirm nor deny his allegations lol.

10/06/2009 ************************************************************************************************

Im going to work on an old story I lost here years ago called Welcome to New York and try to rewrite it. I only wish I had the originals would save a lot of time.

I spent the weekend over at a friends home. It was wonderful. He had an outside hot tube and the morning was chili...we skinny dipped and tried to make love in the hot tube but it didnt work to well lol.

The evening was an amazing time. We made out for a while on the rug in front of the fireplace. He laid me down in front of the fireplace and blindfolded me. Then he slowly disrobed me and played with food on my body. He would put grapes in my pussy then rub my lips and have me eat them or slide a slice of honeydew inside me, slide it up my body tantalizingly and then feed it to me. We watched a movie and he had me continue to lay there...with a pillow under my head but put the dip right on my stomach and ate it with chips. he wanted me to hold his cold beer between my legs...brrrrr (didn;t have the blindfold on then though)

He asked, and I agreed, to try tying me up different ways. He was actually very good at it. Every design was so patterned. All of them either went along my slit/crack or on either side around my leg. Some squeezed around my breasts, though a few went across them. He tried tying my hands at my side, to my shoulders, neck, ankles, thighs, to each other... I felt like a human pretzel lol

All in all it was fun and I hope to go back again soon. he mentioned going apple picking next week if there are any left, otherwise he said we could go try a corn maze at night...could be fun to get lost lol.

09/05/2009*************************************************************************************************
Heres another of mine *smiles*

I invite you over for a home cooked meal and who knows what else. You arrive with a box. After dinner. You lead me to my bedroom. Its early dusk outside.


I start to ask why...you put a finger to my lips and I understand I am to be quiet. You circle around behind me and take my hands from my side to the small of my back. I can feel the silk scarf wrapped around my wrists as you tie them securely together.

You walk around front and produce a sheer one inch strip of cloth, looks like it was cut from my nude panty hose. You deftly place it over my eyes to keep them shut and wrap it around my head to tie it in the back.

I wait in anticipation, my senses keen now that I cannot see. I hear your footsteps and the movement of your clothes as you walk around me. I can smell your masculine aroma as you pass in front of me. Suddenly i feel your hands at my naval, no sight to warn me of your touch. You begin unbuttoning my shirt from the bottom up until my shirt falls open revealing my 34b off white linen bra.

A little help and my shirt falls off my shoulders down around my elbows. I feel your arms reach around mine to my back. You fumble with my bra before it falls open. A simple bra really, designed for dresses with a neck strap so that it comes off over my head.

I stand blindfolded, wrists bound in silk behind my back, topless. You stand there admiring my breasts, the sight of my curves. You look so long I wonder if you are still there... I didn't hear you leave. Without warning, I feel your hands on my waist, sliding slowly across my jeans' waistband against my bare skin.

They find the center and unbutton my tight jeans. I hear the zipper slide down, feel its vibrations against my skin, feel it stop, fully unzipped. A hand on either side of my waist slowly pulls down my jeans, down my smooth, slender tone legs, down around my ankles.

A hand on my back pushes me against you...I understand...for support while I step out of my jeans. Using one foot, I push my jeans off the other ankle then repeat it for the first ankle.

I shiver, but not because I'm cold, just that the anticipation is so tense. I hear you walk behind me. I start to turn my head to follow the footsteps but your hands turn my face forward again. I comply obediently.

Your fingers trace around my waist, to my buttock. You pull up hard on the waistband, pulling tight the strip of cloth between my ass cheeks and between my pussy lips, I cant help but whimper just a lil from the shock. If I could see, I think you'd be smiling.

Slowly you peel my v-string down. watching it appear from between my cheeks, then let it fall down my smooth legs. Standing naked , bound and blindfolded.

Again you stare for what seems an eternity, watching me, making me wonder what comes next.

I hear you pull your t-shirt over your head and the t-shirt hit the floor off to the left. I hear your pants unzip and being removed. You are harder to hear now without the movement of clothes, so it comes as a surprize to me when you wrap your arms around me from behind. Skin to bare skin, flesh to flesh. The security of your embrace, so strong, I just want to melt in your arms. One hand cupping my breast, your lips searing my neck in loving kisses. I tilt my head back to give you full access to my neck. No sooner does it start then I am again left alone, untouched.

I feel your hand on the top of my head, pressing down gently. It takes me a moment but I understand and gracefully lower myself to my knees. I hear you sit on the edge of my bed. A hand behind my neck pulls me toward you, gently guiding my face to your lap.

I nuzzle your hard manhood against my soft cheeks, breathing deep your masculine aroma - so intoxicating. You push my head back a lil and put one palm on wither side of my face. You must be watching my face. A thumb plays across my lips...I relax and offer no resistance. Slowly you insert your thumb in my mouth, I instinctively suck on it knowing you are watching me.

Your hands move to the back of my head, entangle in my hair. You guide my head to your hard cock and let me take the initiative. I kiss your cock head...feel your pre-cum against my moist lips...lick it off my lips and savor its flavor.

Take a deep breath and part my precum moistened lips and wrap them over your cock head, slowly slidding them down your shaft. Impaling my mouth on your hard thick rod. I feel your cock hit the back of my mouth and start sliding back up your hard shaft.

I prepare myself this time to deep throat your cock. Repressing my gag reflex as best I can, I slowly slide your massive cock down my throat until my lips kiss the hilt of your awesome hardon.

Paced, I start to bob up and down on your cock, letting it slip slide up and down my throat, sucking on it, my tongue teasing it as it plays in my mouth. My moans of ecstacy muffled by your cock down my throat.

I feel your hands on my head, entangle in my hair, pressing down, driving it deeper down my throat. To let me know that you are in control, that you possess me, you leave your cock down my throat at the end of your thrust. You watch as I gag a lil, squirm, need air. Then, as I nearly pass out, you back thrust to let me breath. You know I like when I am vulnerable, you just wanted to let me know I was.

Feel your hips rock a lil, begin to fuck my mouth as if it were my pussy. Lossing all control to your desperate need. banging my face, slam dunking my head, driving your cock deeper and deeper, faster and faster.

your cock grows even bigger, begins to throb in my mouth. I know whats cumming. You stiffen and moan as a flood of cum explodes into my mouth. I quickly swallow, hard to do with a cock down a girl's throat, to keep from choking. Some of it leaks out the corners of my lips and dribbles down my chin into my hair and onto my bare breasts, driping off my nipples into my bare lap.

Load after load you fire into my mouth, load after load I atempt to swallow. I can feel your cum running down the inside of my throat. At last you sigh and dismount my face. You stroke my hair and I can only imagine your loving look of total satisfaction as you watch me gasp for air. My breasts heaving as I breathe deeply. I hear you say that you love me, that I am awesome.

You know I love to pleasure and you let me fulfill my fantasy. You tell me that next time it will be my turn and that you can hardly wait.


09/05/2009*************************************************************************************************
I know its wrong, but I also know that while I had lots of questions for him, that if he were here today and told me to do it again...Id be like a moth to a flame...and I would. I'm like damaged in that way somehow.

I am like so submissive...not like A Submissive...just tend to be submissive. And you'd never know by what I present to others. I'm outgoing, 'normal', a lil goofy sometimes *grins* but very needy about love deep down inside.

On dates, I'm like my daddy's daughter all over again. The dates seem to like that and quite frankly it turns me on too... like secretly I want to be daddy's lil girl again. It doesn't feel quite normal to me though, like I shouldn't want to be that way. Like my head (which knows what should be) -vs- my heart (which has been trained as a child to want something abnormal)

My dad never actually penetrated my virginity. I'll give him that. He was everywhere else but not there. And sometimes I catch myself wondering why as if I wasn;t good enough that he'd want me there. Then reality kicks me in the face and its probably becuse it would hurt and Id cry and bleed and tell mom or something.

My brother, a few times (hes 2 years older than me) played doctor with my sister and I. I'm sure it was curiosity on his part. Nothing more than revealing, touching and probing. We both act like it never happened and get along well now. He's in the Marines in Iraq. He is very strong...beyond belief strong, well mannered, etc. Girls do seem to flock to him.

I have two sisters. The eldest of we kids is married to a nice guy, They have one daughter (5) and still live by my parents (I'm away at college). My younger (by minutes) sister and I are great friends - I miss her a lot, like Im only half here.

I have a dog named Sequoia who is 9 years old and stays with my parents. I get to go home about 3 times a year mostly during summer, Christmas and Thanksgiving. I like our family now - reminds me of "Leave it to Beaver lol". .. well ok of 2008.

I'm rambling now I suppose lol. I guess I just wanted you to know more about me. Its not all bad. Even though there have been other bad experiences - no my dad's sins are not the worst perpetrated against me, just the most betraying I suppose.

09/05/09****************************************************************************************************
I hope one day I find a guy that wants to at least on occassion share me. I will be faithful to him alone...unless he tells me to do otherwise. Like maybe if his friend helps him out in a tough spot and he wants to say thank you? He would tell me to make his friend happy for the next 24 hours and give me to him and I sooo would. Then afterward...resume my faithfulness to my husband.
Or at a party show me off to his friends and have me suck my man in front of them...maybe he'd even have me suck his friends. Can't you just see the other girls wondering what the guys are hooting and howlering about in that small tight group in the corner lol


*********09/05/2009****************************************************************************************
My skin is smooth and warm to the touch. I have firm breasts but they are only 34b sized...which is at least a handfull but not too big I suppose. My Areolas are pinkish tan, my nipples redish. I do not lactate but I dry suckled a baby before...it was so wonderful...felt so good. Girls don't usually lactate until they are pregnant or give birth. I hope I have plenty of milk for my babies someday and my lover. My breasts are pretty even. I know a lot of girls whose breasts are not the same size because they favor one hand over the other. My nipples get hard if I get excited or they get cold. My breasts though get soft when i get excited *blushes*

I have an innie with a naval ring *grins. Something I kinda got without permission when i was a teen...but my dad (stepdad) didnt know about it for months... I really got in trouble lol but it was ok in the long run.

My pussy is hairless. I use "Nair" on it...and actually most of my body below my neck. Its easier than shaving and does a better job. So my pussy is as smooth as a baby's bottom. So no underarm hair or leg hair...nothing *smiles*

My bottom is firm and smooth, no acne thank goodness. I bath daily and shower daily while at work. I keep a fresh Dobok (martial art uniform) on hand for between classes.

I sometimes use nail polish, I don't normally do fancy things. I usually just use a cherry red or do them french style. Sometimes I do my toes lol.

I am tone. I work out daily for two plus hours each day. I teach martial arts to kids. I am very flexible. I can do the splits.


Oh, and I have one tattoo. Its a lil one. A cherry with a circle around it and a line through it. Its a red tattoo...or supposed to be. Its on my high inner thigh, between my asshole and my pussy. I was very submissive that evening...it hurt so much...and in such a tender place too.

*blushes very red*



*********09/05/2009****************************************************************************************
Variation on a theme

It was attached *pouts* I will send it again on my next letter.

My dentist fantasy goes a lil like this...

A dental emergency requires that my tooth be removed on the dentist's normal day off. I show up in a short skirt v-string panties, a white speghetti string cami and sandels.

The dentist arrives to open the door, small talk, leads me to the chair. He hands me two pills and a cup of water. I swallow them quickly. Almost immediately I get a bit dizzy. He asks me to sit in the dentist chair and get comfortable. I do, spreading my short skirt across my mid-thighs.

He swabs the crease in my arm and has me make a fist. Taking the needle in his hand he inserts it in my arm. Normally I would be squimish, but I am feeling good so I don't care that it hurts. He removes the back end of the needle and inserts the tube. It feed some liquid into my veins...in under ten seconds I fall asleep and my fist opens.

He smiles...I am helpless, totally at his mercy. He walks into the next room and grabs two tripods. He brings them back and positions them around me. Opening a nearby drawer he pulls out two video cameras and secures them to the top of the tripods.

With the video cameras rolling, he slowly inches up my skirt to reveal my v-string. He unties the bows of my speghetti string cami and pulles it down around my waist. He unlatches my black lace strapless bra from in front and sets it aside on the little tray beside the dentist chair.

Grasping either side of my V-string panties, he pulls up on them. The thin cloth of my v-string gets lost between my pussy lips. My dentists stares with a massive hardon.

My v-string peels easily down my long legs and off my now bare feet. My skirt is pushed up so that nearly my entire naked body is visible to the two video cameras. He notes a contraceptive patch on my hop and puts aside his condom. Caressing my breasts, unconsiously cause my nipples to respond and harden. He positions my legs over either side of the chair leaving my wet pussy open to his eyes, vulnerable to his imaginations.

He leans down and kisses my unresponsive lips, forcing my lips apart to give me tongue. His lips travel down my neck to my breasts, my nipples. sucking them hard. Were I awake the force of his sucking would be painful.

A finger...then two slide into my wet pussy. Even drugged, my body presses my mound against his hand, forcing his fingers deeper. I moan in my unconcious state as his fingers rub across my clit. He watches as body unconciously fuck his fingers moaning.

He stops and withdrawls, removing his doctors lab coat. His slacks drop around his ankles. His hands lay across my body as he steps first one foot then the other from his slacks. Straddling me he crawls between my spread legs. Slowly, he lowers himself on top of me, his hard cock on my tummy.

He backs up a lil placing his hard rod at my private entrance. Reaching down, he spreads my pussy lips while entering my poor tight lil pussy with his huge cock. I moan as his thick rod nearly tears my tight pussy. He begins to rock, humping my unconcious body. Mindless moanings as my clit is ravished, meeting his every stroke.

In no time he cums in my pussy, inseminating me, ravishing me, filling me with his seed, marking his territory deep inside me like any male animal. After a moment, he dismounts, surveying my cum covered pussy.

Flipping me over on my stomach, he lowers the chair and then lowers the head of my chair to his cock level. He reaches into his cabinet and withdraws two devices which he inserts in my mouth. They wedge my teeth open but allow me to close my mouth. Positioning himself, easily slides his cum covered cock past my lips. Penetrating my mouth, he pumps his cock down my throat. Unconsiously I gag but he doesnt relent until he comes once again.

My moans muffled by his cock down my throat as he bangs my face. He stiffens, explodes. I instinctively swallow...his cum flowing down my throat. His cum drips onto my face and hair when he dismounts my lips. my mouth drooling his cum down my cheek. My pussy drolling cum first down my leg then my stomach as the chair position changes.

One last deed to video. A special foam shape is slid under my stomach as he holds me elevated above it. Then laying me across it so that my head lay on the headrest with my ass held high in the air, legs split wide.

Mounting the dentist chair from the elevated foot rest, he positions himself behind me. The sight of my helpless naked body hardening his twice cum cock. After lubing his rehardened cock, it effortlessly slides into my ass.My hair fills his hands like reigns on a horse as he mounts his mare from behind.

He cries out as he fills my ass with what lil cum he has in reserve. A few slaps on my bare ass for the cameras and he begins to reposition me, dress me and clean me up. Once back as I was from the start, he quickly extracts my damaged tooth.

He returns the cameras and tripods, removes the IV and needle, then carries me to the waiting room. One last lingering kiss before I awake.

When I awake, I feel good, invigorated, though still a lil dizzy from the drugs. I also feel a lil sore. The dentist explains that the drugs do that. Changing the subject, he prescribes some pain killer and antibiotic. He tells me to return in two weeks for the second half of the procedure once it has healed some. He tells me that since he did this on his day off, we'd best keep it off the books and to come on his next day off to review his work.

Its funny, because when I get home, I realize that I must have accidentally put my panties on backward this morning. I wonder how that happened?


Lol hope you liked it
*bare naked kisses*
-Pamela



********11/26/2008*****************************************************************************************
I was given a gift when i turned 18 (belated gift) by my best friend. Its a remote control variable speed vibrating egg. Its amazing. It fits right inside, no wires. It has two lil bunny like ears that stimulate my clit. It can operate from no more than 10 feet away.

But I can wear it inside me and just reach in my purse and activate it. On medium it keeps me wet and ready. On medium high I can't resist cumming in under 3 minutes. High though is too fast and just frustrating.

In my last year of High School I had to do a dare. I had to give my controller to a guy named Steve and he turned me on and off all day at school. He picked the most annoying/tantalizing times to turn me on. The most embaressing was when i had to give an oral report in Spanish class.

He turned me on and I about doubled over...I had to cum so badly and I was trying to tell the class my essay in Spanish. When I cummed, the teacher thought I was having period cramps and sent Kris to take me to the nurses office. I had to stop off at the bathroom and turn it off because I was out of range. Kris laughed her head off.

Anyway, I had that in me the entire night...gives me very sexy dreams...of course I turned it down to medium after i cummed but mmmmmmmmmm I was all primed when I needed to cum this morning too *grins*

********11/24/08********************************************************************************************
I've always had a weakness for being vulnerable to a guy.

One day I want a guy, someone I trust to keep me safe and not misuse it but have fun with this, to take me to a hypnotist and while under hypnosis be issued a word that puts me in a trance like state when he speaks it. Then he could have fun with me and I won't even know what he did unless he records it and show me. Maybe I'll become his pet girl for a week, or he'll have me unknowingly give blow jobs to all his friends, maybe I'll be his daughter for a week or become a party favorite unbeknownst to me. Maybe he'll just tell me to go on a cum only diet for a week so that all I need/crave is cum. Maybe he would suggest that anytime he says "Honey" that I have to have play with myself til I cum. The possibilities are endless. *smiles*

I once saw a public bathroom designed by a fancy architect. He put it in the middle of a plaza in a buys downtown. It was made entirely of two-way mirrors. People could not see in, they simply saw their reflection. The person inside felt as though they were using the bathroom in the open public cause they felt like they were standing in a glass room and could see out perfectly. I've always dreamed of being made love to in that bathroom.

********11/18/08 *******************************************************************************************

My best friend, Kris, told me about her first time.

Despite having been made love to by my father in so many different ways, he never penetrated me, so i was still a virgin until I was 18.

My best friend Kris, lost her virginity when she was 12. Her parents went away to KillDevil, NC for 10 days and she stayed with her best friend (at the time) who lived almost across the street (which is where I lived soon after).

Every day she would go over for about an hour or so to her home and water plants, feed/walk the dog, put the mail on the table, etc.

On this particular day she and her friend had gone to Virginia Beach and arrived home late. Kris's friend's brother, Brad, (19) volunteered to walk her over since it was so late.

Apparently Kris had a crush on her friend's older brother. The first night they just sat and talked for two hours after the chores were done.

Kris decided to go back late the next night, only this time she gave Brad a tour of the house. When they got to her bedroom, they sat on her bed and talked. And she told me that she purposefully changed positions a lot laying on the bed, etc.

While she was sitting on her bed, Leaned up against the headboard, Brad laid back and put his head in her lap. They kept talking normally, but she said he kept adjusting his head and driving her to the brink of cumming.

Their talk somehow drifted to whether she had a boyfriend. Had they ever made out, yes a little, how far had they gone - just making out and once she had let him touch her breast. Kris admitted to not having much experience and that she was afraid she'd mess up if it ever happened.

Brad told her he could teach her so she'd make her boyfriend happy. Kris told me that her heart almost stopped. She was torn between really really wanting this guy and being untrue to her boyfriend. She reasoned in the end that she was only doing it for her boyfriend. It was one of those situations where it was too late in her mind to go back so she agreed.

He was, according to Kris very systematic but also spontaneous. He showed her basic poses against his body (clothed) that would turn him on and let him know that she desired him, How to hold, kiss, french kiss, all sorts of things we learn clumsily without the benefit of instruction.

Brad had her undress for him while he instructed her to do it sexily. he had her unbutton her shirt from the bottom up, how to let the shirt fall from her shoulders to her arms and then off, to remove her panties first from under her skirt then to slide her skirt down. He had her do it different ways, with different clothes. So she dressed up and down a number of times.

After the last time she undressed, Brad had her undress him. press her body tight against his, look into his eyes, perhaps kiss, and start unbuttoning his shirt top down. And once it fell open to run her hands over his hard ripped frame. To unbuckle his belt and unzip his pants, but not to take them down right away but to play around the edges, sticking her hands down the back under his boxers. Running her hands over his buns and tease possibly touching the front.

Kris told me that she was so excited she cummed twice before she ever got all his clothes off him. Finally he let her remove his pants but that she was to go down to her knees as she took his pants down.

He sat on the edge of the bed and told her to crawl to him naked...I could only imagine the first time I heard her story, but Kris taught me everything about what he taught her.

He had her slide her hands up the legs of his boxers, brush past his manhood and remove his boxers from the inside out. He told her that the teasing makes a man very hard. She said that when she pulled down his boxers she sat and stared for the longest time. She had never really seen one up close. Kris said she jsut sat there mezmerized, entranced...all these powerful primal instincts kicking in. She just wanted that hard cock in her, everywhere.

He apparently let her stare for a while before he instructed her to taste the drop of precum with her tongue. Then had her lick down the underside of his cock before sucking on one of his balls. Brad said that warming the balls in Kris's mouth would make him cum more...don't know if that is fact but oh well lol, sounds fun to me, so I do it.

Kris kinda let instinct take over for a while, she kissed his thighs, balls, shaft for a moment or two then he said to part her lips and lick them to get them wet, but not too much and slowly slide her lips over his cock head and down his shaft. He told her to try to open her throat, surpress her need to gag and take it in as deep as it would go.

He told her to slowly slide up and down his shaft. After a while he placed his hands on the back of her head, entangled in her long hair. He started to guide her head by pushing down then letting her head naturally slide back. Brad began to rock into her mouth and down her throat, his hands pushing her head down deep onto his hard rod. Kris described it later as being slam dunked.

Kris told me that it was uncomfortable at first, and never totally comfortable ever but that she got better at it adapting so that it was easier. When Kris realized that he was hot, out of control needing her to finish him off, she felt very powerful that she could make a guy need this so very badly. It really turned her on.

She could feel the guy's cock throbbing in her mouth, growing and finally he cummed. She nearly dismounted him for fear she would choke on his cum but he held her head tight against him with his cock down her throat, so she was forced to swallow.

It wasn't bad she said but the thought of it at the time was gross, she, like myself, really like it now lol I kinda wish one day I could be on a cum only diet *grins*

After he was taped out he released her head and she dismounted his cock from her mouth. he leaned down and kissed her forhead and told her she was amazing. After that Kris was like a lil puppy dog lol and when he said fetch she fetched.

He took her hand and pulled her up gently to her feet and motioned for her to lay on the bed. She did. she said it felt almost surreal, like she was watching now, like a dream.

She said that if he noticed her shaking from anticipation he didn't say anything. She though she was going to lose her virginity right then but he kneeled between her spread legs and rubbed her mons.

He leaned down to kiss her lips, traveled down to her breasts, which for a her age were half full. licked her bellybutton (she has an innie) then gently kissed her pussy lips. Brad slide his tongue down her slit.... Kris said she realized her knuckles were white as she grasped the bed sheet, otherwise she lay totally still.

His tongue found her clit and flicked it in ways she never dreamed of. His hads roamed her thighs, breasts, even lips. A finger, wet with her own moistness penetrated her mouth, she instinctively sucked it, finding that she tasted pretty good, better even than his cum lol.

It didn't take her long to cum, in fact she told me that she had to beg him to stop, it was so intense, she thought she was going to pass out.

Eventually, he backed out and repositioned himself as though he were going to do a push up over the top of her. His cock kissing her orgasming pussy, her mind barely cognitive. She told me that he graciously gave her a warning that this would hurt and that she could back out now if she wanted but that once he started he couldn't stop...did she still want to do this? She nodded yes...unable to talk.

He took one hand and spread her pussy and slide just the head in. With one hard thrust he popped her cherry. She remembers crying out, that it really hurt, that his thrusting was a lil like sawing against her popped cherry, but that it also felt really good. That she had let him in where no one had ever gone before. She felt a lil remorse that she hadn't saved it for her boyfriend but she was unable to deny Brad anything at the moment so lost was she in her orgasms.

He finished quickly filling her with his remaining hot cum, pumping it deep inside her. Collapsing on top of her, spent. She remembers liking his weight on top of her, her breasts pressed flat against his hard chest, his cock still inside her.

Unfortunately, the phone rang and she said it ended unceremoniously as they scrambled for enough clothes to go answe the phone, even though no one was there to see them naked. It was Kris' mom wondering how things were going, telling her about their vacation. Everything was fine, Kris was having a good time (omg was she ever) and really liked the extended time with her friend across the street.

Anyway for the next four days they apparently went over together and spent hours making love in every imaginable way. Kris was fortunate because he didnt use any protection and she thinks herself very foolish in hind sight. After Kris' parents came back she and Brad only made love two more times, though she said they made out a few times when no one was looking.

Brad died about a year later at a party, he overdosed while drinking with his friends. Their family moved away. My family moved in. So Kris became my best friend. A friend I dearly needed because my dad died that same year.

There are some inbetween parts of my life I've still to tell but I'll want to spend more time on them...at least one is really hard to tell and I've been avoiding it but I know I have to tell it eventually.

My mom got remarried the year after, my step dad is great. You've probably read my life up to this point in my other writtings. Kris' parents got divorced when she was 16, she lived with her dad until we both decided to attend George Mason University. For awhile we shared an old house which Kris' father bought, instead of paying for dorms with no return (he said lol). We sublet empty rooms for spending money and to help offset school fees.

I started working at a TaeKwonDo place in the front office, they let me take TKD classes free. So now I take college classes in the morning, work til 9:30 pm at night, and take tkd classes in their somewhere lol.

But Kris had to return to Colorado where our parents live when her dad got sick (he's ok now). They had to sell the old house so I found a lil town home...reallly lil. I live there by myself. Kris moved back when her dad recovered but she lives with a cousin now not too far away. We still take classes, but its a lil harder paying for most of it by myself, so it goes a lil slower.



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When ever I go to the dentist, I wear a short skirt and button down top. Why? Because I have this fantasy...

I had a tooth ache on a saturday and the dentist made arrangements for me to come in off hours. The business park was deserted except for my car and the dentists. I knocked on the door once or twice and finally he let me in.

Most of the lights were off...except for the one room where he would work on my tooth. He motioned me to sit. I sat, unaware that my skirt had hiked up my leg ev er so slightly. He asked me to rinse my mouth with mouthwash then spit which I did somewhat unceremoniously.

He took a look inside and said that I had a cracked tooth, badly enough that he would have to do a root canal and crown it. He asked if I wanted to do the root canal right then and I replied yes.

He gave me a pill and asked me to swallow then told me to please wait in the waiting room. I sat there looking at old magazines in the faint light from the back room. when he came to get me I was so dizzy and kind of happy. He helped me to the chair and told me to make a fist. He then stuck a needle in my arm and asked me to count to ten backwards.

10...9...8...7...6...........5........zzzzzz. I remember my hand starting to open then it was lights out.

I woke up later...much later in the room designated to wake up in. Id been carried there. I pay as he apologizes for how long it took - over 4 hours. Apparently the roots were particularly hard to drill, the bit kept breaking. I tell him that I understand and that my tooth feels much better.

I ask to use the bathroom while he does the paperwork and figures out how much I owe him. ITs only then that I find my V-string put on backwards. Could I have done that this morning? Never. OMG...my mind races...I am at first mortified, then angry, then as it sets in and I'm really turned on but a lil disappointed that I missed it. After a few minutes I decide what I am going to do. I open the door to exit the bathroom and march out to the front desk where he is working.

My resolve melts...he is soooo cute, expecially in a lab coat, I hesitate...he takes the opportunity to tell me that he will only be charging me for expenses since it was an emergency. Oh and when would I like to schedule to come back?

I hesitate, I want it again so badly. I tell him my schedule is busy. I ask if he has anymore Saturdays open? No, he doesn't but he will make a special exception for me in two weeks. Can he make it sooner? And can he put me to sleep again? Drilling my teeth scare me.

He laughs, I melt, I love his smile. He tells me that my tooth has to heal and it will take time to get a permanent crown, but that yes he can put me to sleep. I give no indication that I know what he did but I thank him. He puts one hand on my shoulder and another on my cheek...I think Im going to cum right there. He says that if it should flare up that I should call anytime day or night and he will personally take care of it.

As I drive home, I can't help touching myself to the thought of what he did to me while I was out cold, until I cum hard at a stop light. I think the guys in the car next to mine were particularly interested as they watched.

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I have dreamed that I woke up in a stall, surrounded by 3 wooden walls on a pile of hay.

In front of me was a steel troughI peeped my head around the corner to the left and right...the trough went for as far as I could see in either direction. I tried to stand and walk arounf the corner but my wrists and ankles are chained to the ground so that I can move around but not leave the stall.

suddenly food appears in the trough and I realize how hungry I am. I cant pick it up with my hands so i stretch my head and eat it from the trough. a clamp secures around my head and I am essentially imobilized on all fours.

A rugged built guy in denim walks from the next stall and pats me on the head...."good girl" he says.

"Your'e a new one aren't you." He rips my clothes off, " You won't be needing these again". He chuckles.

He applies a small suction to my left teet then another to my right. A trickle of milk runs through the suction tubes.

"Ya ain't got much now....but you will in good time"... He pulls a lever, weights drop and pull my kneeling legs wide....He sticks his hand under me and feels me up. "Well you're no virgin but ya ain't had a calf yet either. Well that's ok. The food has hormones that'll get them lil jugs o' yours full of milk in no time."

He then dropped his denim jeans and guides his hard thick cock into my lil cunt hole. I whimper a lil from the shear mass of it as it nearly tears my tight pussy. He slaps my ass and starts thrusting in and out of me. I can't resist...I try...but to my shame I surrender and cum hard...audibly moaning.

He smiles, "You hefers are so easy to climax. It didn't take very long to discover that riding your pussies and making you climax also makes you produce more milk." He laughs.

He cums in my pussy, making me climax all over again, then dismounts his new hefer. He cranks the lever back and I feel the pull on my legs relax. He slaps my ass once more for luck and moves on to the next stall.

The collar retracts and I pull back into my stall... My pussy aching from the sudden emptiness ...leaking his creme from my pussy down my leg.

I realize that this is to be my life from now on...a dairy cow... supplying my lifes milk to be havested. Raped each time to make me produce more on demand.