I'm Sorry

I’m sorry.

I’m sorry           for the cold you caught that I did too.
I’m sorry           for missing the moment it turned into the flu.
I’m sorry           for your daughter taking over the reins
I’m sorry           for the ice that runs through her veins.
I’m sorry          she canceled your moment to share
I’m sorry          only once per month she did your hair.
I’m sorry          for the fighting you had to hear
I’m sorry          for keeping the distance when your future was unclear
I’m sorry          for riding in the car that day
I’m sorry          I let Karen and Tim put you away.
I’m sorry          your faith in me was not very strong
I’m sorry          for failing in righting what they did so wrong.

I’m sorry          for the doctors, the nurses,for them all
I’m sorry          for not handling correctly Tim’s call.
I’m sorry          he lied to you and then cowardly fled
I’m sorry          for you lying in that cold hospital bed
I’m sorry          that you chose in that Hell hole to stay
I’m sorry          that my home was not fit nor safe anyway
I’m sorry          that my efforts of comfort went mostly unheard
I’m sorry          the stroke jumbled now all of your words
I’m sorry          for the rashes, the staff who we all were thieves
I’m sorry          you didn’t know how deeply I grieve
I’m sorry          if ever you felt afraid, sad or alone
I’m sorry          they chose to put you in that home.
I’m sorry          if even one tear of yours did ever fall
I’m sorry          I missed even one of your late calls.

I’m sorry          that Thanksgiving was not all it could be
I’m sorry          that at Christmas in your eyes good-bye I did see
I’m sorry          your last rights in pain you had to hear
I’m sorry          only five from eight was all that was near
I'm sorry          for lacking in status, for other's I'd please
I'm sorry          for failing so much so often with obvious ease
I’m sorry          your last day with me was chaotic or bad
I’m sorry          for losing all the faith and trust once I had
I'm sorry          for you being confident in them but not me
I'm sorry          your life turned into their sick tragedy
I’m sorry          you didn’t get to see the two of us wed
I’m sorry          you died in that ICU’s cold bed.

I'm sorry          your words to me understood
Forgive me mom          I did all that I could.



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"Letter to my family" 
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Damn you Tim and Karen for not doing enough.