Finally Adjusting

When you children leave home even if it is gradually it has a very profound effect on you. You cannot imagine the way it feels when the children leave home, for the first time, as adults. You know it is for the best and that they have to find their own way in the world. Although a lot of knowledge doesn't seem to cover that the heart feels.

It was hard watching two of my children leave at pretty much the same time. One to the Marines and one to wonder. The Marine of course cannot come back until after basic training and choose to leave right before all the family holidays, Thanksgiving and Christmas. The other was back for those holidays although not completely of his choosing. I guess I should be thankful I have raised two very independent individuals who want to do things for themselves.

It is hard seeing them not being able to provide everything thing that they want, and need. Although that is not something that is new to me being a single mom I have never really been able to give them everything they wanted and sometimes it was closer to the bear minimum of what they needed. Somehow we always got by.

It is not as if I can just mope around either. I have one younger child still at home. He is not young enough not to notice what I am going through so I have had to hide a lot of it, however unsuccessfully. Luckily, he is a very respectful person and he knows much more about feelings than he lets on. I would not know this except for the times he does open up and let me know, just how much he does know.

Well, I guess that is enough on this subject and I should be writing stories not this.