Dilemma

                      Tonight
        my heart is filled with emotions.
         Some happy, some sad
    and I’m yet to decide what I really feel.
        Is it the ‘love’ I never understood,
          or is it the ‘guilt’ of my actions,
or is it the ‘remorse’ of the hurt I made him feel?
                Ah, these feelings!
        Unknown, mysterious, hidden.
    Why is it so difficult to know what I feel?
              or is it that I don’t feel?
          Am I a feeling less creature?
              Have I stooped so low,
        have I been so busy in useless tasks
  that I’ve lost myself completely to the winds?
    Have I lost an account of my own feelings?
    and here, I’m wondering, what is it that I feel.
    To get people in a fix, to leave them hanging
                    is that what I do?
Ohh dear, when, when will I KNOW myself,
                    my feelings?
        When I won’t have people in my life?
      So that when I’ll understand what I feel
        Those people won’t be near anymore?
            Ah! A hurtful creature you are
                and I don’t know why
          You cannot distinguish between
        the Necessary and the Accessory!