Better

Better

Sittin' here and there
Thinking about things
That need to be done
Thinking about what i could be doing.
And things i have done

I didn't mean to hurt you
There's just no other way
They told me i had to get better
You told me i was better

The question here is, can i get better?
Some say i should
Others tell me i have to
But i don't want to now.

It's a battle inside me,
I want to get better
It controls my mind
The blades control me

I don't have a choice,
I have to get better
Not for myself, but for you
You told me i was better,
But am i really?

You told me i was fine
But i don't believe you
Looks can be decieving
They always are

What i show you as my face
Isn't the real me
It's a mask that only one can uncover
and that person is me

What i've been given in life
Is a bunch of crap
No one truley understands another
They say they do but they really don't

How could anyone understand what i go through every day?
I don't even
No one does

The person behind the mask,
Needs to be uncovered
But until then,
I'll still cry every night.

~Kelli Marie