All I Have Left

I heard this song on the radio today
as I was driving down the road
that made me think of

         You
         and your smile
         and the way that you laughed at my jokes even though they weren't funny,
         and how you didn't even have to try to make me happy.

Then it wasn't so hard
to remember why I'd
fallen in love with

         You
         and your eyes
         and the way you would roll them when I made you promise to stay out of trouble.
         and how you never did.

Then I would recall
how much time I spent
worrying about

         You
         and your future
         and the way you kept passing up second chances.
         and how your criminal record was longer than my mom's grocery list.

Then I couldn't help
but wonder about

         Us
         and our relationship.
         and the way so many things between us are left unsaid
         and how even though I love you with everything I am, it isn't enough to change you.

Remembering these things brought tears to my eyes.
But I didn't change the station.

Because those memories of you
and the us that never was
are the only things I have left.