What is strength?

I wake up every morning
Its all the same
Another day of hurt
Another day of pain

I try to be strong
To keep hanging on
But God I need you
Your the one who knows what's wrong

I smile, laugh, say everything' okay
But in reality its just not the same
Some people think I'm messed up
They don't even know the half of it
Some times I want to just cry and fess up
Tell everyone that I can't handle it

Would that make me weak?
Would that make me wrong?
Dear God please help me,
Help me be strong

I'm just going to spit it out
No more lying
I can't do it on my own, no matter how hard I'm trying
I'm just going to shout
I know I messed up,
I know I did wrong
But I just wanted to be strong

Everyday I make the same mistakes
Selfishness blinding me from what matters most
So no matter how long it takes
I want to get it right
Focus on others
And not just me
Be there for my friends
Be there for my family
Because their the ones who are always here for me

I smile, laugh, say everything' okay
But in reality its just not the same
Some people think I'm messed up
They don't even know the half of it
Some times I want to just cry and fess up
Tell everyone that I can't handle it

But that makes me weak
Makes me less of a human than I want to be
I have troubles,
But I want to make it out
I'm never giving up
So now I'm going to shout

I don't know who I am
I'm afraid that I'm lost for good
But if anyone can find me,
I know you would

I think I'm selfish
I know its true
These voices in my head
Try to keep me from you

They say that I can do it on my own
That I'm strong enough to get out by myself
But then I end up all alone

I cry but no one seems to hear me
I guess their just too busy
Half of me wants them to know
Wants them to show up and ask what's wrong
But the other half says no
You did this to yourself
Your the one to blame
Don't suck others into you messed up game

I've asked for help
But I'm not always believed
They say that I'm over-exaggerating
But really I'm just begging
I need someone who understands where I'm at
Not this, not that
No material thing can help
Only you, who makes all things possible
Can bring me from this ditch and make me clean
So instead of crying, I can sing

Sing of your glory,
Sing of your grace,
Sing of your love for the whole human race

I smile, laugh, say everything' okay
But in reality its just not the same
Some people think I'm messed up
They don't even know the half of it
Some times I want to just cry and fess up
Tell everyone that I can't handle it

Because in truth I can't
Can't win a losing battle
Can't get out of my own struggles
Can't seem to get it right
But can always get it wrong
Seems like everyday I do the same things
I'm not trying to hurt, not trying to be mean
But my mouth is my enemy
It says things I don't mean

But this is the end
No longer will I be controlled
By my own selfish wants and the ways of this world
I will cling to you, never let you go
And I'll show the world, I'll show
How anyone can change
Become what they weren't before

Don't be discouraged
Keep hanging on
With Him there's always hope
And the promise to be strong