You And I In The Rough

YOU AND I IN THE ROUGH
(April 7, 2009)

        We were together for awhile.
	Not sure what we were to each other,
	But we were together
        And that's all that mattered.

			We had some rough patches
			But through it all 
			We were very close
			And nothing could tear us apart.	
				
		Then one day without a thought
                I let my feelings slip,
                Revealing how another made me feel
                And how he felt for me.
        
			I always shared everything with you,
			My life, my soul, the inner me.
			I never thought you’d get mad,
			Say things that you’d never say.

	But you did tell me these things.	
	You were angry, I was hurt.
	I felt you wanted nothing
	To do with me anymore.
	
 
	I was afraid your dirty words
	Would sting me again.
	I told you to stop contacting me,
	To stop sending me letters.

			You obeyed my orders,
			Vanishing from my life.
			I was sinking deep in emotion,
			Drowning with each passing day.

		Not only were you no longer here,
		But another who kept on repeating
                How much he loved me
                Toyed with me and wounded me deeply,

			Deep to the point where
			"I love you" was something I feared.
			How do I know it’s real?
			How do I trust these words ever again?

	I don’t want to fall into the trap
	Of artificial love,
	A love that will only die
	And leave me wounded for life.
 
	
        I regret falling for another,
	Can’t believe I ever did.
	But it happened 
        And there's no way to change the past.
	
			I regret for letting you know,
			And letting you go,
			When all along
			The only person I truly loved was you.

		Something made you take a chance
		And write me a very short letter,
		And that something brought us together 
		Again, stronger and best of friends.

			The past will forever live inside us
			And will haunt us into the future,
			But I know I love only you
			And you are the only one I’ll ever truly love.

	You’re the best person in my life.
	I cannot live in this world without you.
	If you vanish from me again
	Then I will vanish with you.

	
	I need you in my life forever,
	And you need me in yours too,
	Even if all we’ll ever be
	Is the best of friends till the end.

			And though it saddens me 
			That all we’ll ever really be is friends
			As that’s how fate
			Has dealt its cards,

		I will always hope for more,
		And this will keep me going,
		Keep me hanging on to something 
		Really special, magical, comforting.

			I will dream of walking
			With you hand in hand,
			Cuddling beside you under the stars,
			Kissing your tender lips,

	Melting into you
	As you melt into me
	Without ever parting,
	Just staying in this moment forever.