Happy Birthday, My Little Girl

I stand and know the silent pain
That is a part of my every breath

It is hidden where no one sees
No evidence when you look at me

I cradle the memory in my heart
Of my little girl with eyes so gray

They twinkled with flecks of gold
A perfect match to Daddy's
A window to her soul

She brought much laughter
But do not be fooled
She was a drama queen

Everything was most intense
Way up or down so low

She lived her life full and fast
And oh, how we love her so!

The birthday that was not to be
Still is vivid in my memory

Eight years old
Does not seem much to ask
But eight years did not pass

The ache it leaves will always be
Until this life is but a memory

My life is rich, many blessings I know
But there is a place only a little girl can hold



My Sweetheart
You told me one day with fear in your voice

"Mommy I don't want you to die"
I smiled at you and the purity of your love
I said,
"Someday, but when I do, Mandy always remember I will wait for you"

Now you wait for us to come
It is not the way it should be

But I will be there soon...any day
I know sweetheart...
You are just a breath away!

25 years and still waiting