"A Crowded Room"

Softly
so gently
I remember mom
in a crowded room
wiping away my tears
and fears of having failed her.
Her words spoken so peacefully;
as if in a dream now lying in a grave!

“Now don’t you go crying and spoil my day
with God to be my guide through heaven’s gate;
my new home with the angels, and dad the surprise;
his sweet loving smile, leading me by my hand to bow
proposing, that we may be together again with our Savior,
Jesus who loves you, crying with me to see your sin;
jealous and accusing one another to receive my will.
How long have you been arguing with each other
for the house and cars given to the orphanage
where dad found me hiding in a cupboard;
abandoned as a teenager years ago;
pregnant with you, my baby girl?"

This memory has haunted me
to change my way of living;
teaching the children
at the orphanage,
about my mom
loving me;
forgiven
now.