Thin Line

How thin is the line between sanity and madness?
how much fun is it to flirt along it's borders?
it's a dangerous game to play
i'm sure most who do end up losing
i've probably lost myself
but i'll keep playing until i know for sure
i wonder what would change
how i would know and if i would care
i wonder if anyone else would notice
and if they would care
i wonder if i would notice it in someone else
if i'd care, or even be amused
is madness such a bad thing, really?
why is sanity so highly regarded anyway?
through the eyes of retrospective introspection
i seem to remember sanity as the quiet before the storm
that moment of knowing everything is good
just before you find out everything is far from good
the moment of clarity before the clouds fall
false memory?
barriers?
does it matter?
is it sane to fall in love?
to give so much to someone else
asking for nothing in return
is it sane to trust someone?
take their words as fact
take their feelings and emotions at face value
is it sane to still love after the fall?
after they've hurt you and left you a broken man?
sanity is like maturity and righteousness
you do the right thing and get fucked over anyway
you pull your punches, sugar coat your words
make someone feel special and actually enjoy it
then they assault you when your guard is down
take what they can and run
you stay around and try to come to terms
unable to shake off the feelings that once felt so right
that now feel so twisted
you try to replace them with more fitting emotions
but you can only dilute things so much
it's always there at the back of your mind
in the depths of your heart
tearing at your being
reminding you
laughing
truly letting go is a pipe dream
deep felt emotions can't be deleted
they stay forever
sanity is overrated
i'd have madness anyday
any way
maybe.