contradiction

I'm asleep but I'm not dreaming
I'm awake but I don't see anything at all

I'm afraid but I don't know what I'm scared of
I am brave but I don't know what I'm fighting for anymore

I'm my own contradiction
I'm asleep, I'm awake, I'm brave, I'm afraid
I'm my own perfect fabrication
I don't know who you are, where I've been, what we are
It's not that I don't remember I don't think I ever knew
So tell me, what's my relationship to you?