CurtisLee Cancino's Theory About Deja Vu

Have any of you experienced deja vu? I’m sure you have, but do you know what it means?

I bring this up because as I was reading the 3rd page of Managing Your Time in the Cornerstone for my Strategies for Online Learning class, and I, once again, felt the strange touch of deja vu brush my soul. “Whoa!” I thought. “This sensation hasn’t happened in a while.” Who knows when I had the original dream when I “saw” myself reading that 3rd page, but I finally re-experienced it today.

I have a theory that deja vu is a checkpoint system, similar to how some action-oriented video games -- with really long levels -- have a checkpoint system, so, if you die, you don’t have to replay that level from the beginning. Well, in real life there definitely are some setbacks we all experience. But instead of dying, like in a video game, we continue with our lives in a very dramatic fashion.

I hear you ask: “So how is deja vu like a video game checkpoint system?” Well, if you don’t accomplish the goals you set yourself up to achieve within a certain amount of time (within our time/space of living), I feel you get sent back to the previous “checkpoint” in life where you did actually achieve “something” of importance. If the last “great” thing you did in our life (that you set out to do) was get a job, well your work place will start to stink of repetition, until you set up a new goal for yourself to achieve. Once you set this goal in mind, and you fail to achieve it, back to square-one you go again, and the job place starts to stink even more of repetition.

This repetition could also apply to relationships, as this is the realm where I gleamed my theory of deja vu from. Let me explain: I felt I met my soul-mate one time. But, due to my lack of action, the relationship fell through. (I appreciate who I “thought” my soul-mate was for putting up with my B.S. for so long, before she finally gave up on me.) In the end, to escape my reoccurring deja vu (it started happening once a month, then once a week, and finally, once a day) I found somebody else to turn my attention upon. Oddly enough, she was a former Satanist who sold her soul for a chance to have a kid.

This woman’s story is interesting enough, and it has quantum implication like no other, but I won’t go into the details of her story here. But know this: Once I met this woman and let my feelings get involved towards her, my repetitious cycle of deja vu was broken at the work place. In a way, this woman was my savior from a strange Hell on Earth. (A quantum implication concerning her Satanism.)

My belief, and investment of emotions into a soul-mate, who held the same convictions I do, lead her and I into a paradoxical dimension of life, that I feel, many people get trapped in and don’t know how to get out of. The problematic relationship I first experienced, and is the singularity of my deja vu experiences, had started in High School and continued for roughly 5-10 years. This weird case of deja vu, that developed over time, was one of the most astounding events to ever occur in my life and I’m glad it’s over.

Bringing reality back around to today: When I felt that strange touch of deja vu, again, it startled me. But it also reminded me of my old check point theory, and I felt elevated that I’ve reached a new checkpoint in my life. “About damn time,” and “Thank you, Lord,” are the two things that echoed through my soul upon acknowledgment of my new checkpoint.

So next time you experience deja vu, think for a moment about your life; where you’ve came from, what’s happening now, where you plan on going, and move accordingly. Or, you just might find the stink of repetition invading your life, like it did mine. So, if you dream a strange dream within the month of planning your future, don’t be too surprised if you visit the same scene some time later on down the road of life. Your subconscious is just letting you know: “Good job! Keep it up, or you’ll see this checkpoint again, and again, and again, until you do the right thing to move on.”

-Curtis Lee Cancino 7-17-2009