I remember

Written 13/05/08. No real structure or purpose, just a ramble.


I remember
I remember when i'd smile and mean it
when i'd laugh and actually feel it
there were bad days and good
the bad days weren't so bad
i had coping mechanisms
i could cheer myself up
everything seemed good again
I remember when my thoughts meant something
i was proud of my imagination and intelligence
i wasn't afraid of memories and rememberance
i wasn't afraid to think of the future
i wasn't afraid to think
I remember when emotion made me feel alive
tears cleansed me
i wasn't afraid to express myself
i wasn't afraid to feel, to be me
I remember when love was real
naivity, innocence, belief, just add water and stir
I can't remember the feeling
maybe i'm afraid to
no maybe about it
it's best this way
I remember the pain when love stopped being real