In responce to challenging circumstances

In Response to Challenging Circumstances.(2009)

Sometimes what we demand is a want or a desire and other times it is necessary for Life. We are to shelter our community but instead we grumbled and division struck our sanctuary. A church is suppose to be a community with an advisor. A true community of Christians is unified; not divided among themselves. Where your love goes, you follow. The world isn't always the safest place for love. Nations have already begun to support me. God can do what you feel is impossible. We may not tell the whole story, but we don't lie. If someone hurts your child, cast them out of your life. If he loved you, he wouldn't hurt you or he would apologize if he does. Any man who does less doesn't love. Any woman who hurts another to bolster herself has no love in her. We don't sacrifice our friends and family to survive; we build up what others have knocked down. That is a Christian life: to build and if you can't do that, get out of our churches. Make a place for those that can.
(Genesis 20: 1-16) I didn't lie. Kent was my friend but more he gave me his heart. Because of which I prayed for him. And my heart in the end came to appreciate him all the more for his love. We are the restless generation: quick to jealousy and anger, pained if we don't have what we feel is necessary as we are hurt by the tongues of peers who proceed against God. The grumblers and faultfinders who desire evil and the boastful soul that flatter others for their own advantage seemed to be in power.(2 Peter 3:9) God keeps his words; have patience. He doesn't want any to perish. The pain caused the believers to look like the monsters with no Light. They caused God so much pain that He thought they had no light left so He would destroy the object that caused the pain. (2 Peter 2:5) He protects the righteous from harm.
(Matthew 24: 37-39) They who don't know Him will carry on in their way. As before the flood, the ones that didn't believe Noah did. The end will be the same for they who don't see the changes. Noah appeared separated and different; a lone heart in the midst of a cold, heartless valley of neighsayers, grumblers, and faultfinders. I am a lone heart reaching out to whom she can in the midst of neighsayers, grumblers, and faultfinders, watching for the sun to rise. What is a rainbow's truest meaning? It is a promise of God's, that He isn't going to drown the world. (Romans 10:17) Faith comes from hearing the message which comes by way of Truth. (Ephesians 1: 13) You heard the message, and believe; so you are sealed by God. We are heard when we pray.

Justification: God's assurances that we're heard.

My Junior year of high school, I was confirmed Catholic in the color of mourners. One night afterwards I went to bed, and it as if every inch of my floor was covered with snakes hissing. They stayed off the bed, surrounding me as I lay awake. I know that God was trying to tell me something about the people I was trusting because God in His Wisdom had given me the Holy Spirit in December. He knew I would need it to understand those who were a danger to us. (Genesis 12:10-20) If they know I love you, they will kill me to get you. Say we are less than we are, that I may live. (John 16: 26-27) Because you loved him, you ask him to ask; yet because God saw you loved him, the 'Father' of Heaven loves you. (Ezekiel 14: 20) God showed mercy to the man you love, your righteousness can not save him. Yet because of the worldly I call myself his friend. For I feared that God wasn't here. (John 14:15) When we love, we obey. I asked “Why are they so hard on us when we love?” It was for the pain we carried with us; it needed resolving. The crowds grew darker and the winds whipped us in its chilliness. (Ephesians 3:21) Why do people analyze the communities and the generations? God is the glory of His Children everywhere. (2 Corinthians 12:9) To keep me humble an evil man was sent to torment me. (I Peter 3:9) Revenge doesn't change evil but love blesses those who bless. My own hurt caused my thoughts to turn to revenge but it's not the way of love.
(Hebrews 3:7-8, 14, 18-19) If God comes, don't be hard of heart. Remember and understand. Do not disbelieve. Preservation is the result of trials and tests. Without faithfulness it is impossible to please God. When you trust, obedience follows. Actions speak louder than words and that's part of why I love him. Pain leads to anger and anger leads to worse. We all have the inclination of evil inside us but the environment affects the way we react also. Where Love is, God is found; where Insults are constant, hatred lives. I don't know if you know but I would rather be where Love is. In his final message, I know where Krebs is now. He is with LOVE. For LOVE is God. My love brought him to God and God's love changed him. My dreams were built upon Salvation and Hopefulness. I fear that my dreams will remain unfulfilled because of those who laughed at them, calling me crazy. I know that He wants me to appreciate the good things that will come more than the more painful moments of my past. It took me 7 months to not be blinded by Geoffrey and realize what a difference Kent had made in my life back then. So my book is the completion of the heart he offered up to me. The longer we wait, the more impatient and frustrated we feel. Wouldn't we want to know if God was going to deliver! (Hebrews 11:1) Faith is being assured of dreams and certain of His Promises for us. (James 2:17) Faith enables action; as trust allows obedience.

Salvation: Great faithfulness in the unprovable- God.
Hopefulness: all will be blessed through us.
Assurance: a great trust in God's Words and Blessings.

God assured me over and over that the best was coming. I was racked with sobs because of the man who chose to show me his heart had died. And as a result, God lifted him to His Throne on High. I asked that for him because of the love he showed me. Because of my love, he is in God's Palace in the clouds. A man in the truest sense of the word came back to my arms as a soul departed; why do you disbelieve? Anything is possible for God. (I Peter 1:6-7) You have had pain and trial so that when His Blessing comes - you will be strong enough to receive it. So it will not deter you. (Hebrews 11: 6, 39-40) Without faith, it is impossible to please God and receive from him. People took note of your faithfulness, yet you wait on your promise. Only together can something better exist. (Philippians 3:20) As Christians, our home is heaven but on earth, we are visitors in a strange world. Yet because of the worldly I call myself his friend. When you heard, you felt it was impossible. But God can do the impossible and he will do what has been deemed by you improbable. (Hebrews 13:5b) God will never leave or turn away.(Genesis 18: 10-15) Do not doubt. God can do anything. He will do what He promised He would for me. I shall have what I hoped for.
(Matthew 19: 26) God makes all things possible. (I Thesalonians 4: 13-18) Do not weep bittersweetly, those who died will be the first to rise. That's what they tell me when I start to cry because Knox can't remain at my side now. (Hebrews 11:15-16) The departed return when they think of those that were left behind. (Galatians 4: 31 ) We come from the women who live in freedom not from slaves. We are descendants of Abraham's faithfulness. As he trusted in God's words, so do we: the Children of the Light. (Hebrews 13:2) Entertain strangers because you never knew if they are Angels in disguise.(John 15:15) You are not servants of the Lord for a servant does not know his master. But I call you friends because all I know, I have shared with you. (I Timothy 2: 1-4) As God's Children we pray for all because God wants all to understand and be brought to the truth. We pray for those in authority, that they will rule justly remembering God's Law is above their own.
(Ephesians 6:18) In Prayer for others, be vigilante always. I keep trying to let a guy touch my heart again but the closer I get to my dream, the more doubts come. It's not a matter of trying but not letting go of the betrayals, the death of a man who took the time to show me love, and the threats on my life or confidence. I needed to heal first; that's why I waited to mourn. (2 Timothy 2:13) If we lose heart, God remains faithful for we are His and He will not give us up. With faithfulness and trust, a heart is earned. Anything is possible through God, so why is his return to me so hard to believe? There have been more mountains than valleys in my life. When I forgot, they turned away, but as I sift through the past, the pain shows and some have chosen to augment it rather than to understand it. If I carry the mountains on my back, I will be crippled under their weight. If I am to heal the pain, I must begin to let go of the wrongs, mistakes, and betrayals; because it is the only way I will be able to fulfill my dreams. God only gives you what is good for you. (Luke 1:37) God makes all things possible. In Judaic Theology there are more words for a bride or wife than a husband, stating that women are to be valued because the Ezer is there to help the Le 'vado but the Kallah is the completion of her Hatan, and marriage is a union of equal souls joined by God. (Mark 10: 6-9) We are matched through difference. Yet in marriage we are knit together becoming one. God will join two children of His in love (male and female). What He has brought together, let no one separate! (Psalm 133:1)When our love is returned, we are complete. It is for our love that we remained bound together because love lasts beyond death. What is success in our world (measured by those who have condemned him)? Money, Love, Children, Education, Positions of Power,and when we don't have it, they say we failed. How does heaven see success for those on the side of Angels? Fruits of the Spirit, Gifts of faithfulness, Charitable Acts, and Corporal works of mercy. Because if we truly love, such things are the results.


Between God And I: Answered Prayers.

Dear God,
Jeremiah 32:17 Creator of the Universe, nothing is too difficult for you.
Romans 4:21 I may have doubted before but now I am sure what He said will come to pass.
Job 42: 2 I know you can do it because your plans are never thwarted.
Jeremiah 7:34 In our land, all are solemn.
John 18: 20-21, 30. I said what I knew; Will you condemn me now?
Revelations 22: 1-2 The river of life and the tree of life will heal the Nations.
Amen

My Child,
Ephesians 5: 22, 32: The church is like a bride and Christ the husband.
John 14:1-3 Do not worry. I go ahead but heaven has many rooms. I will come for you in the right time.
Jeremiah 32:27 I am the God of mankind. What is too hard for me?
I Peter 3:3-4 Your beauty is on the inside. That makes you more beautiful than any who wear adornments. The gentleness and quietness of your countenance is worth more than gold.
Genesis 6:20 Those who come will keep you alive.
Hebrews 11:11 He who promised was faithful, so God will make it so.



The man he became is more important than the man he had been when I held his heart in mine. For the man I love is going to a place where I will be to at the end of my days. Our unfinished business needed to be finished, for me to become what I dreamed of. To become what I hoped for. I don't know if you realize: I chose the friends I do because of their compassion, not their criticisms. Even Knox had compassion and that is why I had to mourn. Because that was my time to remember the heart I'd won. (Colossians 3:23-24) When I began, I wrote of the heart that chose mine. But God changed him that I might still love him now. So I wrote out my dreams that God might further understand them. Using a few characters that came before to the page as I wrote. I am not willing to get something for nothing so while I was healing, I asked for help. It takes time for one who has been broken by the world to rebuild. (Matthew 5:41) Knox Kent only started me on this journey. The rest is up to me. I know that there is a lot of changes occurring. But as those who received early know, the love in our hearts doesn't die, even when we are heavy with pain. Sometimes it takes so much to renew our faith in what He promised us. That's how I know that it's time for the world to change and be more positive. It's our time to live.

Rejoice! Sorrow isn't forever- Christmas Is!